I remember...
I feel like i dont know anyone anymore. I used to be so close to so many. And its not like i stopped calling but people stopped answering. Maybe its my fault. It probrably is. Everything changed and its not that i stopped caring i just didnt want to make anyone uncomfortable. I bleeped myself out of exsistance. And now i sit and remember. I remember the past and what was. What could have been. I remember these things that make me cry, they run through my head over and over. I miss how close i was to these people.
We had this thing, little letters we would write eachother. Not neccisarally to each other but still little letters. they said so much in sometimes no words. Sometimes they went on for pages.
I remember the night you told me you tore up your letter to me. That it didnt exsist anymore. Almost saying we dont exsist anymore. It hurt so much. you are one of the people i cant get out of my head. i loved you and you loved me and then i made a choice. sometimes i think it was selfish. You know it kills me to think we will never have that night again. I laid in your lap wile you stroked my hair. We talked about everything and nothing. I knew that ounce i got out of the car we would never have a moment like that again. And we never have. Its hard for us to look each other in the eye now a days. Hugging you cuts my heart to pieces. Not knowing how you feel hurts more. Thank you for all those nights we spent together.
I remember when i told you that this wasnt the end, but the beggining that our love would forever exsist in any situation. I remember hearing your tears fall. as mine are now. i remember your sent. i remember your hands and your nails. I remember you. and me.i remember playing video games late at night and going to get ice cream at the same place. The same flavor. Everytime i order it i think of you. You were my youth, you wittnessed it all. Sometimes i wonder if your dissapointed. I wonder how you feel about me too. Thank you for teaching me everything.
I remember our long talks late at night. I remember how you would come over and we would tease eachothers thoughts about what could be, untill finally what could be is what happened and then everything changed.
I remember seeing you, thousands of miles away and knowing our lips would never ever touch. I remember feeling your chest and kissing your cheek goodbye. Maybe ill never see you again, maybe we will finally meet again.
I remember so much good with you. So much laughter and thought. I remember coffee and long talks. Finding trouble and running away from it. I remember sitting next to you and being totally comfortable knowing exsactly what you thought and felt. Now, i cry. i cry because something along the way changed. I dont know when it happened or why i just wish i could take it back. Something hurt you, i dont know if it was me or someone else. But i miss you so so so so much. I hope we can fix what was lost.
Your the one im supposed to understand. And ill prolly never figure out. Do you miss me when im gone? I dont know if ill ever really know what you think of me.
I wish my heart would stop hurting. I wish i could make this feeling go away. Ill never forget any of you. And i hope you know just how much you mean to me. i wonder if i meant this much to you?
We had this thing, little letters we would write eachother. Not neccisarally to each other but still little letters. they said so much in sometimes no words. Sometimes they went on for pages.
I remember the night you told me you tore up your letter to me. That it didnt exsist anymore. Almost saying we dont exsist anymore. It hurt so much. you are one of the people i cant get out of my head. i loved you and you loved me and then i made a choice. sometimes i think it was selfish. You know it kills me to think we will never have that night again. I laid in your lap wile you stroked my hair. We talked about everything and nothing. I knew that ounce i got out of the car we would never have a moment like that again. And we never have. Its hard for us to look each other in the eye now a days. Hugging you cuts my heart to pieces. Not knowing how you feel hurts more. Thank you for all those nights we spent together.
I remember when i told you that this wasnt the end, but the beggining that our love would forever exsist in any situation. I remember hearing your tears fall. as mine are now. i remember your sent. i remember your hands and your nails. I remember you. and me.i remember playing video games late at night and going to get ice cream at the same place. The same flavor. Everytime i order it i think of you. You were my youth, you wittnessed it all. Sometimes i wonder if your dissapointed. I wonder how you feel about me too. Thank you for teaching me everything.
I remember our long talks late at night. I remember how you would come over and we would tease eachothers thoughts about what could be, untill finally what could be is what happened and then everything changed.
I remember seeing you, thousands of miles away and knowing our lips would never ever touch. I remember feeling your chest and kissing your cheek goodbye. Maybe ill never see you again, maybe we will finally meet again.
I remember so much good with you. So much laughter and thought. I remember coffee and long talks. Finding trouble and running away from it. I remember sitting next to you and being totally comfortable knowing exsactly what you thought and felt. Now, i cry. i cry because something along the way changed. I dont know when it happened or why i just wish i could take it back. Something hurt you, i dont know if it was me or someone else. But i miss you so so so so much. I hope we can fix what was lost.
Your the one im supposed to understand. And ill prolly never figure out. Do you miss me when im gone? I dont know if ill ever really know what you think of me.
I wish my heart would stop hurting. I wish i could make this feeling go away. Ill never forget any of you. And i hope you know just how much you mean to me. i wonder if i meant this much to you?