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I promise I will get back to telling my tale, but I wanted to capture my thoughts and emotions so I don't forget. I feel a lot better. I know I needed a period with which to grieve. Maybe Claudia could have helped me through it a bit better, but it's not really her fault--I need to start relying on myself. Anyway, that's done and over with. In all honesty, I hope she's happy. I'm still hopeful we'll get back together again, as I had many wonderful memories. If you're reading this, you've given me several wonderful years with which to remember, and I thank you. But you were right--some things need to change. And maybe one day, one day soon, when we're ready, we can start again. But I'm not expecting anything. I'll admit that I'm still sad. And I don't think I can start dating again anytime soon. I can't live solely in the present as I need something to anchor me in the future, but that's okay because I can realize that. And for now, it's enough. Anyway, a little jumbled I guess, but those are my thoughts. Unfortunately, life goes on. Work sucks cause I want to take a break, but that's okay. I'll take a break soon enough. I love you Claudia... no mind games there.