Empty Cup
Amused by the StarHub Happy Stars top-up card ad right on top of this page as I type this. My best friend uses it.
10 days to Christmas. It doesn't make much of a difference on this side of the world. I don't know what I'm doing here, but I just want to... express. Is all.
The whole day was just to myself. I was supposed to meet Kyle, either him or Tae, but because Dad is in a cast for the next month & a half due to his fractured toes that happened in a vehicle accident, I went back out of guilt. I didn't want to stay at home really, being miserable and staying locked indoors isn't healthy.
I tried to read but got disinterested a quarter of You Suck by some guy writer & I ain't bother to go back looking for it, tried to watch a Discovery documentary on the Bluray player but somehow it didn't appear on screen so I switched that off too. My mates had been trying to get through through text and online, but I hadn't been replying enthusiastically like I usually do. I want to keep my mind off, but I end up staring into the blankness.
I've been restless and still restless, but trying to isolate myself as much as possible so I don't inflict pain on anybody.
Spent time creating a banner to privatize this LJ though, so the next & last public post you see is that banner.
I'm reading the preview of House and Philosophy: Everybody Lies on Amazon.
I want to buy it, understand it, understand Dr House. House is the most psychologically challenging TV drama ever created, it makes you think of the truths in life and human thinking. Not to mention it has entertaining sarcasm from House himself. I can relate to him a lot, because I may not be as stupendously smart as him, but when it comes down to personality, I'm exactly like what he is. The socially indifferent person who wishes to connect with human beings as little as possible for fear of rejection.
Logic over emotion.
Truth over illusion.
Humanity is overrated. Everybody lies.
One shot for my pain
One drag for my sorrow
I get messed up today
I'll be okay tomorrow
That is... if I am okay tomorrow...
10 days to Christmas. It doesn't make much of a difference on this side of the world. I don't know what I'm doing here, but I just want to... express. Is all.
The whole day was just to myself. I was supposed to meet Kyle, either him or Tae, but because Dad is in a cast for the next month & a half due to his fractured toes that happened in a vehicle accident, I went back out of guilt. I didn't want to stay at home really, being miserable and staying locked indoors isn't healthy.
I tried to read but got disinterested a quarter of You Suck by some guy writer & I ain't bother to go back looking for it, tried to watch a Discovery documentary on the Bluray player but somehow it didn't appear on screen so I switched that off too. My mates had been trying to get through through text and online, but I hadn't been replying enthusiastically like I usually do. I want to keep my mind off, but I end up staring into the blankness.
I've been restless and still restless, but trying to isolate myself as much as possible so I don't inflict pain on anybody.
Spent time creating a banner to privatize this LJ though, so the next & last public post you see is that banner.
I'm reading the preview of House and Philosophy: Everybody Lies on Amazon.
I want to buy it, understand it, understand Dr House. House is the most psychologically challenging TV drama ever created, it makes you think of the truths in life and human thinking. Not to mention it has entertaining sarcasm from House himself. I can relate to him a lot, because I may not be as stupendously smart as him, but when it comes down to personality, I'm exactly like what he is. The socially indifferent person who wishes to connect with human beings as little as possible for fear of rejection.
Logic over emotion.
Truth over illusion.
Humanity is overrated. Everybody lies.
Click to viewOne shot for my pain
One drag for my sorrow
I get messed up today
I'll be okay tomorrow
That is... if I am okay tomorrow...