Goodness Erased
Work in an hour. I said I'll be here & here I am.
Was pretty much in a very jovial mood until I had a conversation with one of my close mates, & it has now blew my esteem away.
Now the big dilemma is: Is it so hard to be nice?
Why has it become a punishable trait instead of something that is welcomed?
I've always been the giving type. But after that conversation, which is a topic built up from every other conversation with other people, my mind has decided that I can't be too nice to anybody without being negatively judged. I know no boundarie
What's wrong about being nice?
What's wrong about being giving to everyone even though you don't know them?
What's wrong about lending a hand to people who are in need?
What's wrong about being friends with just about anyone?
What's wrong with smiling at someone because you feel like it is a nice thing to do?
Since when is there a boundary, a curb that says you can't be too charitable?
I don't want anything back. I just want people to receive & feel good about themselves. Is that too much to ask?
I feel discouraged every time someone turns their back on my good intentions.
They say courtesy is what everybody wishes & wants from everybody else . But courtesy is the attitude that's dying because of all these people who have suspicions of everything that people give them are out to poison them.
It kills the wanting to be a good person.
That's what Mahatma Ghandi had to go through. What Mother Theresa had to go through. What Jesus & Muhammad & every other philanthropist had to go through. The hate because of the misconception of wrong intentions.
I won't stop being humane because someone thinks I'm a people pleaser. Hell that's far from what I am, because you can go to any one who knows me personally & they'd tell you I'm FAR from that.
Act only on what's what right & wrong & not be someone who says yes & no just because someone else wants to hear it.
Be fucking clear honest to yourself.
Any opinions of anyone's own? I'd love to hear, even if you're from Tumblr you can comment on this via message or Discus.
I'm starving & could eat a cow and a half the past few hours, but because of the above my appetite has turned into emptiness & I'm telling my body that I'm hungry instead of dejected so it doesn't decide to starve itself. Don't know if turning up early at work & grabbing lunch there would do any good, but it doesn't hurt to try. An experienced auntie colleague of mine had showed me where I am supposed to report to at Paiza yesterday, so taking my time.
In the next few days/weeks this LJ shall be progressively revamped & locked.
Depends on if I have the time to, but it shall be. Send me your requests. =)
By the way, message me a number to my facebook inbox, & I'll tell you what I think of you on my wall. ^_^
And I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to...
Was pretty much in a very jovial mood until I had a conversation with one of my close mates, & it has now blew my esteem away.
Now the big dilemma is: Is it so hard to be nice?
Why has it become a punishable trait instead of something that is welcomed?
I've always been the giving type. But after that conversation, which is a topic built up from every other conversation with other people, my mind has decided that I can't be too nice to anybody without being negatively judged. I know no boundarie
What's wrong about being nice?
What's wrong about being giving to everyone even though you don't know them?
What's wrong about lending a hand to people who are in need?
What's wrong about being friends with just about anyone?
What's wrong with smiling at someone because you feel like it is a nice thing to do?
Since when is there a boundary, a curb that says you can't be too charitable?
I don't want anything back. I just want people to receive & feel good about themselves. Is that too much to ask?
I feel discouraged every time someone turns their back on my good intentions.
They say courtesy is what everybody wishes & wants from everybody else . But courtesy is the attitude that's dying because of all these people who have suspicions of everything that people give them are out to poison them.
It kills the wanting to be a good person.
That's what Mahatma Ghandi had to go through. What Mother Theresa had to go through. What Jesus & Muhammad & every other philanthropist had to go through. The hate because of the misconception of wrong intentions.
I won't stop being humane because someone thinks I'm a people pleaser. Hell that's far from what I am, because you can go to any one who knows me personally & they'd tell you I'm FAR from that.
Act only on what's what right & wrong & not be someone who says yes & no just because someone else wants to hear it.
Be fucking clear honest to yourself.
Any opinions of anyone's own? I'd love to hear, even if you're from Tumblr you can comment on this via message or Discus.
I'm starving & could eat a cow and a half the past few hours, but because of the above my appetite has turned into emptiness & I'm telling my body that I'm hungry instead of dejected so it doesn't decide to starve itself. Don't know if turning up early at work & grabbing lunch there would do any good, but it doesn't hurt to try. An experienced auntie colleague of mine had showed me where I am supposed to report to at Paiza yesterday, so taking my time.
In the next few days/weeks this LJ shall be progressively revamped & locked.
Depends on if I have the time to, but it shall be. Send me your requests. =)
By the way, message me a number to my facebook inbox, & I'll tell you what I think of you on my wall. ^_^
Click to viewAnd I give it all away
Just to have somewhere to go to
Give it all away
To have someone to come home to...