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well. long time no update. i have a myspace just to let you all know. www.myspace.com/x6deadin6yourembrace6x. go there if you have it and add me if i dont have you added already! herm...im leaving in 29 days. going to chicago then minnesota. not coming back till the 2nd. wasting away my whole summer...kari is leaving -tear- july 9th..or around there. im sorry if this is selfish..i kno she will read this. but. i am hoping and praying to god that it doesnt work. i need her...she just doesnt kno how much...-sigh-..anyways..ive been in a really depressed mood lately. idk why..im like losing everyone..idk wat the hell i did..but whatever it is..its made ppl hate me..=\...i just wanna get out of sarasota..seeing as everyone else is leaving..but i have no where to go. i dont feel like im at home here. its been almost 4 yrs. yet. i still just dont like it. i have a few friends that i can say anything to..i can tell them whatever. but they are all leaving. they dont realize how much i need them...but..it doesnt matter if im going to miss them..the only thing that matters is the ppl they are going back to..its just..idk..doesnt seem fair to me..everyone complains about how they wanna get out of here. and almost everyone that wants to..gets there way. they dont realize that there are ppl who wanna leave. but cant. but they are not breaking down and giving in. but having everyone you need leave you. is not whats gonna fucking help make every day worth while. sometimes i just feel like my feelings dont matter to anyone..and everyone wonders why im always depressed and how i dont think life is worth living. this is why. no one cares if something is gonna hurt me..and i kno exactly what is going to happen now..everyone is gonna read this..call me selfish..tell me i should think of how other ppl feel. but i dont fucking care anymore.