Pray for a moment
I just want one moment to get things straightened out. And can I get that moment no. I get no time of rest no settling of things. One after the other something going wrong. Can't even seem to get myself out of this whole that I never caused. Car gets broken into 240 dollars to get it running again. Late on rent and a check bounces I get no rest. Sit at work bored and tired from thinking about what is going to go wrong next. Prepare for the worst hope for the best. I wasn't prepared. I was hoping things would fall into place i was hoping that I would have this straightend out. All I want is a break all I want is a little time to enjoy life. This whole fucking year sucked. With Laurren gone I thought her leaving may let things settle. When her leaving made my life worse. I just pretend to be any kind of calm. Inside my own depression and dispair eat away like some virus. I'm not calm I loosing everything i've worked too hard to get. Little things. Only when you loose everything are you truly free. Pff i'm losing it all and i feel even more chained down then before. I have no way of getting out of this.