Time for an update!
Isn't procrastination just the key to everything? Sort of meant to be doing other things about now.... but oh well!
Things in life are pretty confusing - particularly with my girlfriend of nearly two years.
Everything is good, she's really good looking, friendly, polite to other people, intelligent, romantic and really the best thing that's ever happened to me - and I think I want to throw it all away. Is it worth the risk?
I'm not exactly old, 19 and she's 17 - but she treats it as if we're already married with two kids and our own house. She moans a lot and doesn't really have any backbone, she's a bit clingy and tells me she loves me about a thousand times a day. But we make a good couple and nobody is perfect.
Thing is, when I go up to uni and leave her back home, I feel a little restricted, like I'm throwing away my experience at uni and I can't enjoy myself as much. I also feel like Zach Braff does in the film 'Last Kiss' (yup, i've seen a chickflik!) - like my life is all planned out with her, no more surprises. In the film he stayed with his woman, only difference is - he was 30 and I'm 19!!!
I haven't just started thinking about this, been thinking about it since christmas, it's been nagging me ever since - I thought it was just a phase you go through, but it's stronger now more than ever. I know I'm taking a big risk if I go through with this, we could probably go the distance in life together and I'm putting it on the line.
Help?
So... moving away from the pains of relationship, and onto the pains of career. I've done pretty shit at uni for my first year. Hoping to move onto a scriptwriting course for the second year. But once again I have become a failure in life. I think I just haven't found my niche and passion. Some people are really lucky - they discover their passions in life really early, I think I am a late developer. Oh well. Have faith I suppose!
Things in life are pretty confusing - particularly with my girlfriend of nearly two years.
Everything is good, she's really good looking, friendly, polite to other people, intelligent, romantic and really the best thing that's ever happened to me - and I think I want to throw it all away. Is it worth the risk?
I'm not exactly old, 19 and she's 17 - but she treats it as if we're already married with two kids and our own house. She moans a lot and doesn't really have any backbone, she's a bit clingy and tells me she loves me about a thousand times a day. But we make a good couple and nobody is perfect.
Thing is, when I go up to uni and leave her back home, I feel a little restricted, like I'm throwing away my experience at uni and I can't enjoy myself as much. I also feel like Zach Braff does in the film 'Last Kiss' (yup, i've seen a chickflik!) - like my life is all planned out with her, no more surprises. In the film he stayed with his woman, only difference is - he was 30 and I'm 19!!!
I haven't just started thinking about this, been thinking about it since christmas, it's been nagging me ever since - I thought it was just a phase you go through, but it's stronger now more than ever. I know I'm taking a big risk if I go through with this, we could probably go the distance in life together and I'm putting it on the line.
Help?
So... moving away from the pains of relationship, and onto the pains of career. I've done pretty shit at uni for my first year. Hoping to move onto a scriptwriting course for the second year. But once again I have become a failure in life. I think I just haven't found my niche and passion. Some people are really lucky - they discover their passions in life really early, I think I am a late developer. Oh well. Have faith I suppose!