-Is it the thought of "dear gods do i have to?" when you wake up because you know you're going to feel like shit inside from now until the moment you go back to sleep
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YOU JUST PUT INTO WORDS WHAT SO MANY PEOPLE FEEL ANGEL. MOST OF US, AT LEAST EVERYONE WITH GOALS, HAS TO SACRIFICE SO VERY MUCH TO ACHIEVE THEIR "DREAM." EVEN THOUGH IT'S THEIR "DESIRES" THEY'RE GIVING UP IN THE PROCESS. YOU WANT TO KNOW WHAT I WOULD LOVE TO DO WITH MY LIFE? I'D LOVE TO HAVE A PLANTATION IN GA. I'D LOVE TO BE A FARMER'S WIFE, HAVE CORN GROWING AS FAR AS THE EYE CAN SEE. I'D LOVE TO LIVE A SIMPLE LIFE TAKING CARE OF MY CHILDREN. I'D LOVE TO HAVE A CLOTHES LINE IN THE BACKYARD TO HANG LAUNDRY OUT TO DRY ON. I'D LOVE TO HAVE BREAKFAST, LUNCH, AND DINNER ON THE TABLE LIKE CLOCKWORK. I'D LOVE TO BE THE ONE THAT DOESN'T MAKE THE ENDS MEET, BUT THE ONE THAT KEEPS THEM TIED (AS THE SONG GOES.)
BUT WHAT AM I DOING INSTEAD? I'M IN THE UNITED STATES NAVY. I'M LEARNING HOW TO KILL PEOPLE IN THE NAME OF PEACE AND THEN HOW TO RESUSCITATE THEM. I GRIND EYE GLASSES AND FIT PEOPLE FOR CONTACTS. I'M GOING TO SCHOOL FOR PRE-MED SO I CAN BE A NEUROLOGIST. A JOB THAT WILL TAKE ME TO NYC OR SAN DIEGO OR SOME BIG CITY LIKE THAT. I'M GOING IN THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE DIRECTION. AND WHY IS THAT? BECAUSE I HAVE A CALLING IN LIFE AND I ANSWERED IT.
EVERYONE HAS IT ROUGH BABY. YOU'RE NOT GOING THROUGH ANYTHING THAT MOST OTHERS DON'T HAVE TO FACE. AND IT PROBABLY WON'T GET EASIER, YOU'LL JUST GET USED TO IT. LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS. JUST LEAVE YOU FANTASIES ON THE DREAM SHEET AND KEEP THEM THERE BECAUSE IF YOU GO AFTER THEM YOU MAY FIND THAT IT'S NOT THE DREAM YOU IMAGINED AND THAT'S THE WORST LET DOWN OF ALL. WITHOUGT YOUR DREAMS YOU HAVE NOTHING TO KEEP YOU GOING SOMETIMES.
BUT WHAT AM I DOING INSTEAD? I'M IN THE UNITED STATES NAVY. I'M LEARNING HOW TO KILL PEOPLE IN THE NAME OF PEACE AND THEN HOW TO RESUSCITATE THEM. I GRIND EYE GLASSES AND FIT PEOPLE FOR CONTACTS. I'M GOING TO SCHOOL FOR PRE-MED SO I CAN BE A NEUROLOGIST. A JOB THAT WILL TAKE ME TO NYC OR SAN DIEGO OR SOME BIG CITY LIKE THAT. I'M GOING IN THE COMPLETE OPPOSITE DIRECTION. AND WHY IS THAT? BECAUSE I HAVE A CALLING IN LIFE AND I ANSWERED IT.
EVERYONE HAS IT ROUGH BABY. YOU'RE NOT GOING THROUGH ANYTHING THAT MOST OTHERS DON'T HAVE TO FACE. AND IT PROBABLY WON'T GET EASIER, YOU'LL JUST GET USED TO IT. LOOK AT THE BRIGHT SIDE OF THINGS. JUST LEAVE YOU FANTASIES ON THE DREAM SHEET AND KEEP THEM THERE BECAUSE IF YOU GO AFTER THEM YOU MAY FIND THAT IT'S NOT THE DREAM YOU IMAGINED AND THAT'S THE WORST LET DOWN OF ALL. WITHOUGT YOUR DREAMS YOU HAVE NOTHING TO KEEP YOU GOING SOMETIMES.
I LOVE YOU STEPHEN AND I'M HERE WHEN YOU NEED ME.
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