Another days gone, and bites the dust, but the memories of the past still linger there in...
another day has come and gone, yet my relaxation still has no effect, nor was it very relaxing at all, I tried to let my mind rest today, yet, I still can't help but come back to those thoughts that really matter, the people who really matter, and the realities of life itself. I just couldn't do anything right, couldn't even do too well in Poker, everytime I tried to think, my mind just kept coming back to the problems at hand, even if they really don't revolve around me specificly, they still do through others. I need a vacation.....something to give me sometime to set things right, and fix things. Thats my life though, never really getting to relax, nor really get to enjoy myself too much, because I usually have thoughts of others on my mind.
On to other things, Thanksgiving.....oh boy, more time with :coughs: "family".....god I hate dealing with it, but, the "mask" is able to get through and no one suspects a thing, they never do....even how shallow my hello's are....I tried a bacardi hurricane.....woluldn't have been too bad, had it been more fruity and less liquor tasting.....I had about 5 or 6 sips of that, which equalled next to nothing, I had to get my mind off things, to atleast try and let myself relax, even just for a few hours, it didn't work, nor did the two sips of Corona Extra....talk about horrible tasting....it tastes like ass to be blunt. I merely have a headache from dealing with all this shit....being more concerned about others and their well being more then my own and myself. I'm still concerned about them. Was going to use my mom's phone to make a call, but she saw right through me, and knew it was going to be long distance....damn it all....I atleast wanted to check up....she if things were all right....I really hope everything is all right, and that you weren't bothered...and that you got the R&R You need, and deserve. Well, I hope you people know who I'm talking to, and who I'm talking about. For those of you who know.....letting me know everything is ok, is important, before I go and worry myself to death. Hope everyone has a wonderful night, and I'll be sitting here.....awaiting that time....when I am needed.
On to other things, Thanksgiving.....oh boy, more time with :coughs: "family".....god I hate dealing with it, but, the "mask" is able to get through and no one suspects a thing, they never do....even how shallow my hello's are....I tried a bacardi hurricane.....woluldn't have been too bad, had it been more fruity and less liquor tasting.....I had about 5 or 6 sips of that, which equalled next to nothing, I had to get my mind off things, to atleast try and let myself relax, even just for a few hours, it didn't work, nor did the two sips of Corona Extra....talk about horrible tasting....it tastes like ass to be blunt. I merely have a headache from dealing with all this shit....being more concerned about others and their well being more then my own and myself. I'm still concerned about them. Was going to use my mom's phone to make a call, but she saw right through me, and knew it was going to be long distance....damn it all....I atleast wanted to check up....she if things were all right....I really hope everything is all right, and that you weren't bothered...and that you got the R&R You need, and deserve. Well, I hope you people know who I'm talking to, and who I'm talking about. For those of you who know.....letting me know everything is ok, is important, before I go and worry myself to death. Hope everyone has a wonderful night, and I'll be sitting here.....awaiting that time....when I am needed.