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do you ever feel like you don't know how to do things for "you"?
meaning, like when you write an entry....are you writing in hopes to impress people, or for them.
is it a combination of both.
i want to do something for me, and ONLY me.
but i dont know if i know how???
and i dont know what?
i dont know LOL.
all i know is, i want to keep moving up in life.
i want to have it all.
I want to do well in school.
I want to have amazing friends (i already do and i'm grateful for them)
I want to prove to myself, that I can be the girl I want to be on a regular basis without it feeling
"acted" out.
I'm so stressed all the time?
I dont even get why?
I am my own worst enemy.
I want the opposite.
I always feel like I'm not good enough, or I dont deserve that, or I'm the exception (to negative things).
why do I do that to myself?
I'm aware of it.
k next step???
i dont know im overwhelemed just writing this entry.
i need to go lay down.
meaning, like when you write an entry....are you writing in hopes to impress people, or for them.
is it a combination of both.
i want to do something for me, and ONLY me.
but i dont know if i know how???
and i dont know what?
i dont know LOL.
all i know is, i want to keep moving up in life.
i want to have it all.
I want to do well in school.
I want to have amazing friends (i already do and i'm grateful for them)
I want to prove to myself, that I can be the girl I want to be on a regular basis without it feeling
"acted" out.
I'm so stressed all the time?
I dont even get why?
I am my own worst enemy.
I want the opposite.
I always feel like I'm not good enough, or I dont deserve that, or I'm the exception (to negative things).
why do I do that to myself?
I'm aware of it.
k next step???
i dont know im overwhelemed just writing this entry.
i need to go lay down.