[One Shot] We Got Married : Memories
Title: We got married : Memories
Author: Angelteuki_13 / Nhei / KTmin13 ( twitter | tumblr )
Characters: Kangin, Eeteuk, Yunji
Pairings: Kangteuk, Kangji
Chapter: 1/1
Genre: Drama
Disclaimer: I only own the plot and ideas.
Author’s Note: Dedicated to Ate Let. ^^
Summary: WGM last episode is approaching but Yunji want more of what she has with Kangin. (Lame summary)
We got married : Memories
[Yunji’s POV]
“And cut!”
The director announced. Everyone on the set moved to do their own task-some went to arrange the equipments used in filming while others went to give us, the artists, care. I am forever grateful to this kind people for treating us very well. Working with them is undeniably awesome and something that I cannot forget no matter how many years may pass. Staring at everyone with a gentle smile tugged on my lips, I can’t help but feel proud and at the same time, the urge to cry. But I held them in. Shouldn’t I be happy that for once, I experience this kind of program; that I was given the chance to work with these hardworking people; that I made new friends? If I am to cry, wouldn't it be because of happiness?
But why do I feel so sad? No, it isn’t the sadness of leaving them what I’m talking about. It’s something else, something I couldn’t point out.
While talking to some staffs, I accidentally spotted a person who was walking out from the set, the person I have known for months now, who became close to my heart, the person who I just then realized the reason of my melancholy.
Kim Youngwoon.
I felt this heavy feeling of sadness while watching him walk away. It’s like watching him walk away from my life. Tears struggled to come out again but I can’t cry just yet. As he faded from my sight, I felt the urge to follow him, to reach for him and stop him from going. My feet moved automatically away from the people I was talking with, careless if I became a disrespectful person. Because all I care was him.
He was still on the hallway when I went out of the set.
“Y-Youngwoon ssi…” My heart beat doubled when his steps halted.
He quickly turned and smiled when his eyes met mine. The breath I didn’t know I was holding was freed seeing his smile. I just love how his eyes turned into a half-moon whenever he smiles.
“Oh, Yunji-ssi.”
“Where are you heading to?” I smiled at him. Somehow, the burden has lessened.
“To the waiting room. My things are there. Wanna go with me?” When I nodded, he waited for me and allowed me to walk beside him. He being so caring to me is one thing I really like about him.
The waiting room was empty when we reached it. I just knew right then that the chance was given to me.
There was a moment passed before I had the courage to talk again, “Uhmm… our show’s ending soon.” The heavy feeling in my heart had started again with the words I just said.
“Yeah, our last episode is near. Let’s make it happy!” He was again, smiling at me. I can’t help but do the same.
“Neh. ‘Fighting!’ for us.”
Looking at us now, I could say I am more comfortable talking to him. I feel like I knew all about him already even when I just knew him for only months. He was easy to talk with. I remembered the first time we met. It was all awkward at first. Though I knew him already as a member of Super Junior, meeting him in person was different and to think we will be paired in a show. But I saw how he tried his best to lessen the awkwardness between us. He joked around and smiled often that later on made me feel like talking to a long-time friend.
We, sometimes, think the same. Like how we both thought that Han River looked like an acorn jelly. Funny, right? I had thought about that for long, not knowing someone thinks the same. And it has to be Youngwoon. That moment, I felt I found my soulmate.
Maybe it was that time when I felt Youngwoon’s presence more. Maybe it was that time when I started to notice him more, to give him more attention than I usually do, when I feel happy and excited to see him again. Maybe it was that time. I do not know exactly when but I just found myself falling for him and telling myself that I love him. That I love Youngwoon.
But of course, I hid it.
Since then, I keep on telling myself that it wasn’t really ‘love’ that I felt. It was the fact that I should show I love him and he should show he love me for the program. But his words to me, like how he cared for me grew the love I felt for him. Though, I knew he was saying it only for the program, and that he wasn’t really saying it because it’s true, I still fell for him. Even though at the end, I knew I would be hurt.
I remembered the time how I got annoyed when I saw him not wearing our wedding ring. For the program, I acted affected by it (though in reality, I really was affected). I told him we should break up. I did that for two reasons. One is for prank. And the other one was to see his reaction, hoping that he will be affected, that he will be sad and stop my sudden decision.
He got angry. But he easily agreed.
I was really hurt.
But with a smile, I told him that it was all prank and everything went back to normal.
Those memories I still keep in my heart brought smile on me. Every part of it is significant.
We fell on a comfortable silence. I stood behind him, watching him packed his things, watching every move he makes like it will be the last time I’ll see him again. Yet I don’t want it to happen. Everything we did together was only for the program and I want it for reality where we don’t have to act what we are told to do. I know I’m asking big but it’s what my heart tells. I just then realized that I should do something.
“Y-Youngwoon-ssi…” My voice trembled.
“Neh?” He answered my call by looking at me once and then went back to his things.
“I-I was thinking that…after our show ends…uhm….wouldn’t it be nice if we, with the other artists and some staffs, could hang out more often?” I paused for a while. “I-I mean, I really want to hang out with all of you now since…ah….I already establish friendship with you all.”
Without looking on me, he replied, “That would be great, Yunji-ssi. But after our last episode, other artists would be busy on their other activities while the staffs would continue the show. So I guess it will be hard to hang out with these schedules.”
“Ah… I see.” I searched for better words to continue, fidgeting on my fingers. “So…how about you and me? We can hang out, right? W-wouldn’t it better if we can know more about each other even the show’s over for us?”
Believe it or not but it wasn’t easy to have the guts to ask him that. I swallowed hard seeing him stop moving. There was a long pause before he turned to face me. Just by seeing his weak, unsure smile, gave me a clue on what his answer can possibly be.
“Sorry Yunji, but I’m already seeing someone else.”
I can imagine my hopes crashing into pieces with the words he just said. It was really painful for me that all I can do was to look at him in the eye. I wanted to smile. I tried but I just can’t. I was making my feelings more obvious to him which I didn’t want to happen. His weak smile showed that he was sorry. And his smile gave me the signal to stop.
“Youngwoon ah?” A voice suddenly echoed around the room. That moment, I can never be more relief that Jungsoo or known to be Eeteuk opened the door of where we were. I whispered a hundred ‘thank you’s that my thoughts were cut off and that we were interrupted.
“Jungsoo Hyung!” I then heard Youngwoon, who quickly moved to welcome Jungsoo on the door. “I’ve been waiting for you.”
“Sorry, traffic.” Jungsoo scratched the back of his head, smiling apologetically at Youngwoon. When he noticed me, he grinned sweetly showing his little dimple on his left cheek. “Hi, Yunji!”
I greeted him back with a bow and smile.
“Traffic? You’re making excuses again, Hyung!” Youngwoon pouted at him.
“Eh? I’m not!” Laughing, Jungsoo hit him on his shoulder and their world was full of laughter, teasing and laughter again.
Stiffened down on my place, I only watched the two. I knew how close these guys are. Whether in front of the camera or off-cam, their closeness never changed. I think anyone knew about that. I just love their relationship with each other.
And at the same time, I envy him, Jungsoo.
Never in my life with Youngwoon had I seen him smile like that to me or to anyone of us around him. Smiling so brightly and full of emotions of happiness he can only do in front of Jungsoo. He joked and teased me like how he did to Jungsoo but his mood had never been so bright.
Sorry Yunji, but I’m already seeing someone else.
I froze. What if…what if he was talking about Jungsoo? Heh, what am I thinking? It’s impossible…isn’t it? It can’t be Jungsoo he was referring to…right?
But when I looked at them again, my thought was instantly clarified. I smile at them while they were teasing each other, while they were enjoying their own happy world together. Of course, it’s possible. What else could be the reason for Youngwoon to smile in that way only for Jungsoo? I smiled contently, aware that I can never surpass Jungsoo in Youngwoon’s heart.
But at least, even just for a short time, even just for the show, even though everything-our relationship, our marriage, our love-was only make-believe, I once felt that Youngwoon loved me.
Even though, it was only for the show.
- END -
A/N: Lame ending, I think. ;_; sorry about that. I hope you like it^^