we all have those days...

[angeltearz]

yep so im sitting here at matt's ;) i love him so much...i've been writing so much these past few months...and reading..and...yeah doin good stuff...I've changed a lot ..i used to be a bad girl..but ok so he's mad at me for something...now...
::starts screamin:: fuck what i want...fuck what i need...i'll sacrifice what i believe...my little girlscout..my little girlscout...ahh jack off jill takes me back...i've downloaded a lot of portishead songs tryin to get back my cds that got stolen..ooo i quit smoking!! thats really good now all i gotta do is fix my mood swings and i'll be all better...
heres another poem i wrote just yesterday..

you've got your gun at your side
but your heads in the sky
Time to pour out your heart
To speak your mind
Questionable how you made it thru this
Everlasting lie
got past all the rambling
now you think your tood good
it's all a big mess
you wont be able to clean up
someone else's fault never yours
they painted your world grey
how sweet life used to be
too bad you can't take the blame
your fragile soul can't suck it up
so you bleed for attention...
and black out to a white sleep
where everything is how you want it
sadly enough you dreamt me away
and anyone else that ever cared