Am I about to abandon them?
I feel I may be abandoning my friends and family by leaving. It hurts feeling this but I also feel that I have to risk it. I have to make a future. I have to make someone proud and if not someone here than at least for myself. I just found out yesterday that my aunt may have ALS. I've been praying for her ever since, that she doesn't actually have it, that they're wrong. I'm so sick of death. If she dies it will kill another small part of my soul. My family means so much to me. I don't care about my health. If I were to die, if I were to be ill with what she has... I wouldn't care as long as it meant that she were well. My friend tells me that I have too much heart, but I don't think I have enough. Am I really abandoning all of them by leaving them to go to college?