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its amazing how people say when u turn 18 ur whole life changes. well nothing has changed with me. my life is exactly the same. im treated the exact same by everyone. im not given any extra things. no extra privileges. nothing. its like im still 16 or 17 or even 15........
yesterday i was offically NOT a minor at work. Anthony fixed it and i must say it was such a great day. for once i wasnt being told or forced to do any thing. I worked 5 hours before i went on break b-c thats wat I wanted. And then i was only on break for 15 mins. so i worked a total of like 8 hours hehehe. not much to u but meant the world to me. Then when i was on break anthony told me he wants me to take some tests and be a crew trainer and wat not. that hes gonna get me a new shirt and all that junk. THat hes gonna do something (cant remember wat he said he mumbled too much) that will help me for college. I was soo happy. then today me and Anna were NONE stop goofing with one another. we are soo funny when we get started. and when we get started it LASTS forever lol. I love that lady i hope she doesnt leave while i am there. work has been great to me this weekend.......notice i said TO ME lol.
I saw jason friday and found out he was gonna leave for a few months ( about 4) for national guard. I was upset i knew he was gonna do that but he left that part out i was hurt. Then i he took me home and told me i should go to kyles bday party and not his. another stab. But i chose to go to his any ways. Then there i find out that he wasnt going to mine but going to some race thing with his brother. i was hurt by it but i understood it. i mean it was pre-arranged. idk i keep hoping that somethign will give that some how ill be ok with certain things but its not now.
as u can see theres somethigns on my mind thats getting to me. i just dont know wat to do. i fel like i have lost myself like i have no time or anything to do wat i used to. im soo lost.....
yesterday i was offically NOT a minor at work. Anthony fixed it and i must say it was such a great day. for once i wasnt being told or forced to do any thing. I worked 5 hours before i went on break b-c thats wat I wanted. And then i was only on break for 15 mins. so i worked a total of like 8 hours hehehe. not much to u but meant the world to me. Then when i was on break anthony told me he wants me to take some tests and be a crew trainer and wat not. that hes gonna get me a new shirt and all that junk. THat hes gonna do something (cant remember wat he said he mumbled too much) that will help me for college. I was soo happy. then today me and Anna were NONE stop goofing with one another. we are soo funny when we get started. and when we get started it LASTS forever lol. I love that lady i hope she doesnt leave while i am there. work has been great to me this weekend.......notice i said TO ME lol.
I saw jason friday and found out he was gonna leave for a few months ( about 4) for national guard. I was upset i knew he was gonna do that but he left that part out i was hurt. Then i he took me home and told me i should go to kyles bday party and not his. another stab. But i chose to go to his any ways. Then there i find out that he wasnt going to mine but going to some race thing with his brother. i was hurt by it but i understood it. i mean it was pre-arranged. idk i keep hoping that somethign will give that some how ill be ok with certain things but its not now.
as u can see theres somethigns on my mind thats getting to me. i just dont know wat to do. i fel like i have lost myself like i have no time or anything to do wat i used to. im soo lost.....