Trying to stay Optimistic.
So, I finished my summer clinicals. The director of the company I was assigned to told me that they would try and hire me PRN when I graduate. That was pretty fulfilling to hear despite the fact that I know they are currently full staffed. I continue to hope that finding a job wont turn out to be a nightmare.
So, I am now on my 2 week intermission from school. I can't really call it a break... it's just not long enough. It is certainly better than nothing, though. So, I suppose I can't complain. It feels good.
I'm reading "The Road". I've owned it for like a year or more now, and have never found the time to read it. It started out a little slow... but I can say that I like it. There is a lot of meaning. A good message. I want to know how it ends. Hopefully it isn't very sad.
We're going to Rehoboth Beach on Friday. I'm pretty excited despite the fact that I'm broke. I've never been there, so at least it will be something new for my eyes.
I bought my cat some new cat food and he is refusing to eat it. I have to buy him special food because of his urinary problems. It was between the $12 bag from WalMart and the $30 bag from the vet. They're both made from Purina. The choice was pretty easy. Well, apparantly his stubborn little ass knows the difference. He hasn't eatin in 3 days. I think I'm going to give it one more day, and then I'll probably have to go buy the $30 bag. Talk about being high maintenance. Jesus.
I'm pretty content with life right now. There are a lot of things that I don't like. A lot of things that I would like to change. But, I have faith that those things will come with time. Something I've realized is that most of my life I have tended to look ahead to what was to come... To what I thought was going to be better than where I was in life at that given moment. I spent so much of my teen years wishing I was grown...wanting to be independent, wanting to go out and do what I wanted when I wanted and how I wanted. I missed out on what I had at the time. What I could have had. I took so much for granted. Now I am independent. I have been since I was 17... And now I wish I could have had a little more time at home with my family. I wish I hadn't been gone all the time, or so grumpy when I was there. I spent too much time being sad.
I have a really good man who I am so in love with. I have a nice place to live. I have the cutest dog, and the most stubborn cat whom I love dearly. I have a family who loves me, and who would do anything to see me succeed. I have a car that works. I have a decent job. I'm almost done with college.
I'm happy with that.
I know that this comming semester is going to be really hard on me. Phil has to go back onto the night shift, and I will only get to see him 1 day a week. I'm not going to have any days off for 15 weeks straight, and I'll hardly be making enough money to pay my bills. No Christmas prestents this year.. and I don't know how I'm going to pay for next semester yet.
But, I've decided that I'm going to try and not complain. It's not worth the effort. The time. I WANT to do this... I WANT to finish, and yes it sucks, but this is what I have to do.
I want to be happy. I choose to be happy. I need to concentrate on the good. It's what will get me through.
Happier days may be in sight... but, I'm not going to look past what I have now in order to see them. They will come.
Phil bought me a shirt that says, "Eat. Sleep. Nuclear Medicine." I love it.
<3
So, I am now on my 2 week intermission from school. I can't really call it a break... it's just not long enough. It is certainly better than nothing, though. So, I suppose I can't complain. It feels good.
I'm reading "The Road". I've owned it for like a year or more now, and have never found the time to read it. It started out a little slow... but I can say that I like it. There is a lot of meaning. A good message. I want to know how it ends. Hopefully it isn't very sad.
We're going to Rehoboth Beach on Friday. I'm pretty excited despite the fact that I'm broke. I've never been there, so at least it will be something new for my eyes.
I bought my cat some new cat food and he is refusing to eat it. I have to buy him special food because of his urinary problems. It was between the $12 bag from WalMart and the $30 bag from the vet. They're both made from Purina. The choice was pretty easy. Well, apparantly his stubborn little ass knows the difference. He hasn't eatin in 3 days. I think I'm going to give it one more day, and then I'll probably have to go buy the $30 bag. Talk about being high maintenance. Jesus.
I'm pretty content with life right now. There are a lot of things that I don't like. A lot of things that I would like to change. But, I have faith that those things will come with time. Something I've realized is that most of my life I have tended to look ahead to what was to come... To what I thought was going to be better than where I was in life at that given moment. I spent so much of my teen years wishing I was grown...wanting to be independent, wanting to go out and do what I wanted when I wanted and how I wanted. I missed out on what I had at the time. What I could have had. I took so much for granted. Now I am independent. I have been since I was 17... And now I wish I could have had a little more time at home with my family. I wish I hadn't been gone all the time, or so grumpy when I was there. I spent too much time being sad.
I have a really good man who I am so in love with. I have a nice place to live. I have the cutest dog, and the most stubborn cat whom I love dearly. I have a family who loves me, and who would do anything to see me succeed. I have a car that works. I have a decent job. I'm almost done with college.
I'm happy with that.
I know that this comming semester is going to be really hard on me. Phil has to go back onto the night shift, and I will only get to see him 1 day a week. I'm not going to have any days off for 15 weeks straight, and I'll hardly be making enough money to pay my bills. No Christmas prestents this year.. and I don't know how I'm going to pay for next semester yet.
But, I've decided that I'm going to try and not complain. It's not worth the effort. The time. I WANT to do this... I WANT to finish, and yes it sucks, but this is what I have to do.
I want to be happy. I choose to be happy. I need to concentrate on the good. It's what will get me through.
Happier days may be in sight... but, I'm not going to look past what I have now in order to see them. They will come.
Phil bought me a shirt that says, "Eat. Sleep. Nuclear Medicine." I love it.
<3