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I have way too much to do.
I wouldn't be writing this right now if I could muster up some form of motivation. I'm so sick of school.
I just don't have enough time. Every time slot of every day is taken up with something for me to get done. I have no life. It's hard to be a robot all the time without it eventually taking a toll on you. I'm exhausted. I'm starting to not care... but I can't fail. I owe it to a lot of people to get through this stupid fucking program. So, I have no choice but to continue being a fucking robot.
I'm sick of reading. I'm sick of highlighting. I'm sick of making sense of notes and powerpoints. I'm sick of making hundreds of flash cards every week. I'm sick of studying for a quiz every week, 3 tests every month. I don't want to do this stupid project on a scan that is hardly ever done anymore (and hence, I can't find any information on), and I don't want to find a way to crunch in study time into my overflowing schedule for finals.
I'm sick of not having a weekend off from work for the past 6 years. And yet, I am sick of being broke. Im tired of having to worry about if/how I'm going to even be able to afford finishing my last year of school
I want more than 2 weeks off in between this semester and clinicals. I neeeed it.
I'm feeling overwhelmed if you couldn't tell. Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing this to myself. What makes it worse, is I know life is going to be 10 times more stressfull once clinicals start. It's hard to imagine it being much harder. I know it will be worth it... but I'm just saying that until then, this fucking blows.
I want this part of life to be over.
Fuck. it.
The End.
I wouldn't be writing this right now if I could muster up some form of motivation. I'm so sick of school.
I just don't have enough time. Every time slot of every day is taken up with something for me to get done. I have no life. It's hard to be a robot all the time without it eventually taking a toll on you. I'm exhausted. I'm starting to not care... but I can't fail. I owe it to a lot of people to get through this stupid fucking program. So, I have no choice but to continue being a fucking robot.
I'm sick of reading. I'm sick of highlighting. I'm sick of making sense of notes and powerpoints. I'm sick of making hundreds of flash cards every week. I'm sick of studying for a quiz every week, 3 tests every month. I don't want to do this stupid project on a scan that is hardly ever done anymore (and hence, I can't find any information on), and I don't want to find a way to crunch in study time into my overflowing schedule for finals.
I'm sick of not having a weekend off from work for the past 6 years. And yet, I am sick of being broke. Im tired of having to worry about if/how I'm going to even be able to afford finishing my last year of school
I want more than 2 weeks off in between this semester and clinicals. I neeeed it.
I'm feeling overwhelmed if you couldn't tell. Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing this to myself. What makes it worse, is I know life is going to be 10 times more stressfull once clinicals start. It's hard to imagine it being much harder. I know it will be worth it... but I'm just saying that until then, this fucking blows.
I want this part of life to be over.
Fuck. it.
The End.