Summer time and the living is easy.
Sooo lately I have been thinking about life and how it is currently, and how I may prefer it to be. I have pondered a few things that I am not exactly proud of. I have had some feelings that I don't really understand. And yet I do... perhaps I just don't want to admitt their true origins to myself.
Butterflies... How I've missed them.
It is possible, though that I am creating something out of nothing. Am I that bored? Stupid girl.
I have decided to let it go no further. I can't choose what enters my dreams, but I can at least stop allowing myself to spend so much time consciously thinking about it. It will get me nowhere. Nowhere I'd rather be.
Oh, but how I do love those butterflies. <3
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On another note: I may have to put out more time, effort, and money into enjoying my summer... but I want to. I will. I am. <3
I love Phil. More than ever. I could never be without him.
I don't ever want it to feel like he is weighing me down. I don't ever want it to feel like I am stuck...
I have been tested of this as of late.
My conclusion is that I am my own person. I can do things just for me and not feel badly about it.
He loves me.
Probably more than I deserve.
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Today: I am going to buy some fabric to make my own hairbands with. Also, some gel pens so I can start writing in my black-paged poetry journal again.
I am in a continuing search for the perfect pair of flats. They have yet to be discovered...
I am going to get my beloved sunglasses back from Mamu, and hang w/ "the boys" for a while.
I plan on enjoying the sunshine and the blue skies.
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P.s. You are all invited to Mamu's house on the 4th of July. You can start comming around 6. I will be there with a case (or 2) of Smirnoff at my side. Beer pong has already been decided upon. You should be there! I'd love to see everyone. <3
P.s.s. There is a bird outside my window that sounds like the Ghosts in Zelda.
The End. <3