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Do you ever feel the urge to write... but find that there isnt much to write about?
Nothing worth the while, at least.
I could go through my day and tell you exactly what I did... but that would be pointless.
Today was simply another day.
..I find that sad.
But, at least I woke up.
... I guess.
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The highlight of my day??
Taking pictures downtown with kristin.
We ran into that Brad kid.
Damn, Ashley... damn. hah.
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I should, at the present time, be doing my AP lit homework.
At work, because I have nothing better to do, I tend to go over with myself the remainder of my night. (it sounds lame.. but I know you bitches do it too)
It usually goes something like, "ok.. so I have to drive home. Ill get there by 9. I will fight the urge to eat anything because I need to stop eating so much. I will, instead, get in the shower. I will get my pajamas on. I will go in my room...away from all distractions, and I will do my god damn homework. I should be done all of this around 10:45. I will then, depending on how tired I am, either go to bed, or do whatever...and then go to bed."
Soo, what did I do tonight?...
I came home.
I ate. damnit.
I got in my pajamas.
I got online. shit.
Im a loser.
My life is pointless.
"At heart I am lazy, yet I find such peace and delight in it that I believe it is a natural state, and in what looks like my laziest periods I am closest to my center." -Andre Dubus, 'A Father's Story'
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"I don't feel right about giving money for buildings, places. This starts with the Pope, and I cannot respect one of them till he sells his house and everything in it, and that church too, and uses the money to feed the poor. I have rarely, and maybe never, come across saintliness, but I feel certain it cannot exist in such a place."
It is only a place.
"But, I admit, also, that I know very little, and maybe the Popes live on a different plane and are tried in ways I don't know about.
...I know this is stubborn, but I can find no mention by Christ of maintaining buildings, much less erecting them of stone or brick, and decorating them with pieces of metal and mineral and elements that people still fight over like barbarians." -Andre Dubus, 'A Father's Story'
Jesus said, "The Kingdom of God is inside you, and all around you, not in mansions of wood and stone. Split a piece of wood...and I am there, lift a stone...and you will find me." -Stigmata-
So... that was my dose of religion for the month.
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It is presently 10:22.
...I still have a cankersore.
damnit.