FOR SALE! one mother!

[angelsparkels]

i think i am going to try to sell my mom off to any bider. What a total bitch she is being right now. i feel like she is mad at me because im happy and i dont need her anymore to make my smile and she knows it. she is driving me insane, making crude, and rude comments to MY FRIENDS about me and my house and ryan and she does it right in front of my face. (suz, dont yell yet!) i pray everynight that God will give me the strength to stand up to her and tell her the fuck off, yet i know i wont do it. i pray everynight that my mother will grow up and learn that this is my life and she should respect the decisions i have made, she should trust me, she raised me. i dont want her around me, i dont want anything to do with her i hate her, she is so negative to me and she makes me want to be depressed. she knows my weaknesses and i think that she plays on them so hard, i think she wants me to be depressed again so she can take care of me.

I wont do it, i wont let her get me down i wont let her make me mad and i wont let her win in my lifes decisions. i will not become depressed again and i will not let her ruin my life, because its my life and i will let her nor anyone else tell me what to think, say, or do.

one day i sincerly hope that i will tell my mother, support me and my family or go home!!!

lord give me strength!