ughh....
babyy i want to talk to you!!
(he takes a hit)
babeee lets go out, do something fun for once instead of sitting around.
(he pours himself a beer)
.....to upset to say anything.....
(too fucked up to even care)
i watch your self destruction every day... and now its getting old... you really are NEVER going to change.. and honestly im tired of waiting... every day you promise that you will change promise that you will start to treat me with a little fucking respect... you say you hate promises but that those are promises that you will make and keep.... but i dont know how much longer i can wait for.. we are deciding colleges now and you say you want to go with me but im not sure if i want to go with you.. why would i? so you can bring me down, so i can babysit you? i dont know why i would but i know why i will.. because i am a complete idiot. i revolve my whole life around you and your feelings, leaving little time for me.. im scared that no one will love me as much as you say you do every again.. i am afraid of being alone..
but i know i should not be with you.. i know that our relationship is not healthy!!! but i want to be with you and i dont know why!! my brain is starting to kick in hard, yelling at me, screaming and telling me that i can do better than this and that i am stupid.. by my heart just will not listen..
please... i want to be happy
(he takes a hit)
babeee lets go out, do something fun for once instead of sitting around.
(he pours himself a beer)
.....to upset to say anything.....
(too fucked up to even care)
i watch your self destruction every day... and now its getting old... you really are NEVER going to change.. and honestly im tired of waiting... every day you promise that you will change promise that you will start to treat me with a little fucking respect... you say you hate promises but that those are promises that you will make and keep.... but i dont know how much longer i can wait for.. we are deciding colleges now and you say you want to go with me but im not sure if i want to go with you.. why would i? so you can bring me down, so i can babysit you? i dont know why i would but i know why i will.. because i am a complete idiot. i revolve my whole life around you and your feelings, leaving little time for me.. im scared that no one will love me as much as you say you do every again.. i am afraid of being alone..
but i know i should not be with you.. i know that our relationship is not healthy!!! but i want to be with you and i dont know why!! my brain is starting to kick in hard, yelling at me, screaming and telling me that i can do better than this and that i am stupid.. by my heart just will not listen..
please... i want to be happy