Hannah Montana brought out my single self!
Let me explain...
So I went to see the 3-D Hannah Montana movie with Michelle yesterday and had fun. I rarely get to spend time with her anymore because of work and school and all other distractions. We actually went to the movies with my dad, lino, robert, my cousins joseph and carlos but they were going to see Rambo, and well i could do without. Besides it would be way too much gore for Michelle so while they all went to see that she and I got to spend mommy and me time. I forget sometimes how much she makes me laugh when it's just the two of us. And it's weird because before Lino came into our lives it was just us two and we had fun. I enjoyed being a single mom. I had expected to just stay on my own... and I was fine.
I don't know, it's weird, this feeling of independence surging back. I mean I've never really needed Lino because I've always taken care of my own finances. Lino helps but it's more like he's paying me for his share. And yes he's been a big help taking care of Michelle for me but really before him I still had help, I either had her in daycare or I had and still have family that is willing to help. He sort of just took over the role and has always made me feel like I couldn't do it any other way. But that's not true. I guess driving around in a vehicle he bought me put this huge weight on me like I owe him or something. But I don't and I forgot that somewhere along the way. I forget that when we met. I was living in my own apartment, i had my own car, i still got to go out clubbing and take road trips with Michelle in my life. But I made the mistake of thinking that just because I had someone new in my life I had to include him in every aspect of my decisions and vice versa. WTF! Why???
But now... I have given him back that vehicle he bought me and I have my own car again that I bought. I am still the one who pays the rent, light, water, phone... etc. Yes he's paying me his share. But I could still do it with or without him here. I am still going to school like I was back then but am almost done. I am currently planning many... many trips with and without him.
And yes I understand that's alot... I mean alot of mileage... but I am going to work really hard on making it happen. Mainly because I plan on graduating May of '09 and spending the rest of they school year after that just relaxing and laying off alot before thinking about increasing our family. Hopefully things go as planned. Usually these things never do go as planned, but it's worth a shot to try.
Ugh.... that's all I can think of for now... so, untill next time!!!!
So I went to see the 3-D Hannah Montana movie with Michelle yesterday and had fun. I rarely get to spend time with her anymore because of work and school and all other distractions. We actually went to the movies with my dad, lino, robert, my cousins joseph and carlos but they were going to see Rambo, and well i could do without. Besides it would be way too much gore for Michelle so while they all went to see that she and I got to spend mommy and me time. I forget sometimes how much she makes me laugh when it's just the two of us. And it's weird because before Lino came into our lives it was just us two and we had fun. I enjoyed being a single mom. I had expected to just stay on my own... and I was fine.
I don't know, it's weird, this feeling of independence surging back. I mean I've never really needed Lino because I've always taken care of my own finances. Lino helps but it's more like he's paying me for his share. And yes he's been a big help taking care of Michelle for me but really before him I still had help, I either had her in daycare or I had and still have family that is willing to help. He sort of just took over the role and has always made me feel like I couldn't do it any other way. But that's not true. I guess driving around in a vehicle he bought me put this huge weight on me like I owe him or something. But I don't and I forgot that somewhere along the way. I forget that when we met. I was living in my own apartment, i had my own car, i still got to go out clubbing and take road trips with Michelle in my life. But I made the mistake of thinking that just because I had someone new in my life I had to include him in every aspect of my decisions and vice versa. WTF! Why???
But now... I have given him back that vehicle he bought me and I have my own car again that I bought. I am still the one who pays the rent, light, water, phone... etc. Yes he's paying me his share. But I could still do it with or without him here. I am still going to school like I was back then but am almost done. I am currently planning many... many trips with and without him.
- During spring break to a film fest in Austin with mellikitten.
- My High-school reunion in July.
- Las Vegas in August with Lino, Robert, and John.
- Next spring break I might take my dad up on his open offer to Cabo.
- Next summer we are going to Disney World with my dad.
- Also next summer Europe for 3-5 weeks prolly with the same folks as Vegas.
- And New York for New Years 2010.
And yes I understand that's alot... I mean alot of mileage... but I am going to work really hard on making it happen. Mainly because I plan on graduating May of '09 and spending the rest of they school year after that just relaxing and laying off alot before thinking about increasing our family. Hopefully things go as planned. Usually these things never do go as planned, but it's worth a shot to try.
Ugh.... that's all I can think of for now... so, untill next time!!!!