Pain

[angelslostsoul]

Pain that I have no money for Christmas
Pain that I can’t give the one I love the world.
Pain that I have these Mental Illnesses.
Pain that I am so fat that I have to have special care.
Pain that I haven’t really accomplishing anything.
Pain that I am a failure to my family and to people I love.
Pain that I have no money period.
Pain that I want to be in school so bad.
Pain that I go to people for help and they don’t want to help me because I have no MONEY.
Pain that my back is hurting.
Pain that I wish that my real father would stop being an asshole and except that I am his child.
Pain that maybe I never meant to be married.
Pain that I can’t eat the things I want to eat.
Pain that I can’t keep care of my goats when I am in pain or have no ambition.
Pain that I have no ambition.
Pain because I am stuck and don’t know where to turn next.
Pain that I cause my family and friends everyday because of my stupidity.
Pain that I have to watch others accomplish what they want and they get the help they need. I don’t get shit from the same people that they go to.
Pain that Voc Rehab isn’t doing what it’s supposed to do to help me and lying to me when I know that they can do what I ask for.