Hell...it's been three or a hundred years...
Hello out there.
I've decided that myspace is NOT the place....
It WAS kind of fun but not really my cup of wine...er , tea....
Everyone is doing well.
The kids are older now than they were when I first started my rambling ways on the internet.
Michelle is 21, Scott 19 ,and Little Miss Allie will be 16 next month.
And Chris and I are getting older and have begun to settle down and settle into our life....
Don't take that as "life is boring"......it's a good thing and not at all boring.....Beleive THAT.
It's actually really exciting when you hit that stage in a relationship......no inhibitions....everything goes...it's....
Nice....and it's peaceful and good.
And it takes work to get there.....work WELL worth it.
We've been married 16 years and have been together for 18 or maybe 19.....we've hit tough times again and again and we'll hit more, I'm sure......
You learn from every one of them and you learn to stand on the edge , take the leap , and trust the other to catch you..
It's the way we've been always but better now because we've learned to actually communicate honestly and without fear of judgement.
It's a very good feelingto be able to let your guard down and just "be."
People call us unusual.
I find that sad.
We aren'nt and shouldn't be unusual at all.
Allison is my baby and she got behind the wheel of my car last week....
You wanna talk about trippy?
I used to always laugh when my Grandma talked about how fast time goes......
Time didn't go fast back then, it went so slow when I wanted to grow up so fast....and I did grow up fast....
Now I'm there....almost 40...not old, not young.....hanging in limbo between the two.
I want grandkids now but I want my kids to be intelligent about the grandkid thing, too.
It's so funny to be giving the advice that my elders gave me.....I echo the words to my children and then sit back and am curious as to where my advice is coming from......and when I know....it makes me giggle.
I never thought I'd hear the words coming from my hippy self.
Everything is pretty much still the same here.....less partying, the kids are older...we still sit around and jam ....just not every night. I still work at the same place except in a higher position and in a corporate , not franchised world......I like it a lot better but it's more involved and harder work.....Some days I hate.....some days I love.....
I'm just happy to have a pretty good job...I know that people are losing jobs all over the place.
I can't bitch about having a good one.
I have recently learned that Drama is not right for me so I've managed to abstain from any kind of mental fuckery that launches itself at me at all costs.
"Fuck it" is my mantra and I have learned to say it often and with a big grin.
So we're still us and I'm still me....just older and I think WAAAAY less whiny and bitchy and self serving....
OH , You'll get those days....the days when I would like to punch someone in the lips a few times.....other than that...
Fuck it.
It's all good.
I've got pictures...lots and lots of them and if you want to see them you have to explain to me how to post them here.
I would LOVE to share......
I remember when I wouldn't even tell anyone my name.
Sleep pretty you guys.