fuck
For as long as I can remember, my Mom always forced us to make New Year resolutions.
We had to write them down on paper and turn them in to her....
It seems that she needed to know, in her constantly fucked up state, what was on our tiny , little ,minds.
I haven't made any resolutions since I've been a legal adult.
I have always found that to do that is to set yourself up for failure.....
I don't know, though.
I'm making a few this year.
Maybe they'll stick.
All that I have ever wanted since I was a small, little , child was to grow up, get married and have a nice family.....feminists shoot me, if you dare.
I always had a vision of what I would do differently from the way my Mother did it. I never, ever , wanted to become my mother.......that's so cliche' , I know , but it's so much the truth.....she cared for us in her own way......life was twisted and you played it out in your own way....did what you needed to and got through.....
Happy little family be damned.
I never wanted my kids to feel pain...I never wanted my kids to ever have a moment of self - doubt, I never wanted them to worry......and I've come to realize that that's just not normal.....everyone has those feelings...what's normal is not dwelling on them...
I dwell on my fucked up feelings far too much.....
I live in an idealistic dream world where nothing bad can ever happen....
I live inside of the part of my own mind where I believe everything that my kids tell me and that they do no wrong...
How fucking gay and stupid am I?
My kids are normal people, coming out of this house, It's a goddamn wonder.....but all of them are free thinking individuals....I'm not looking to turn any of them into clones....they all have their own stuff going on....I 'm happy that they do.
Michelle needs to get her freaking drivers license and begin to act like an adult....ok, I'll give you that...other than that, I have some good freaking kids...
No pregnancies, that I know of, no crack induced stupor, no murders...ok, I know that that's extreme...
I'm just saying that I have 3 awesome kids and that I love spending time with them...we have fun and I enjoy my kids.....most days , anyways.
I'm just hoping that when my kids get to be my age , they don't have to look back and ask themselves....
"Just what have I done with my life ? "......
And come up empty.....
No soul should ever feel empty....
No soul should ever have to feel that it hasn't done that which it has been destined to do........
No soul should ever feel alone...
It's all good.
We had to write them down on paper and turn them in to her....
It seems that she needed to know, in her constantly fucked up state, what was on our tiny , little ,minds.
I haven't made any resolutions since I've been a legal adult.
I have always found that to do that is to set yourself up for failure.....
I don't know, though.
I'm making a few this year.
Maybe they'll stick.
All that I have ever wanted since I was a small, little , child was to grow up, get married and have a nice family.....feminists shoot me, if you dare.
I always had a vision of what I would do differently from the way my Mother did it. I never, ever , wanted to become my mother.......that's so cliche' , I know , but it's so much the truth.....she cared for us in her own way......life was twisted and you played it out in your own way....did what you needed to and got through.....
Happy little family be damned.
I never wanted my kids to feel pain...I never wanted my kids to ever have a moment of self - doubt, I never wanted them to worry......and I've come to realize that that's just not normal.....everyone has those feelings...what's normal is not dwelling on them...
I dwell on my fucked up feelings far too much.....
I live in an idealistic dream world where nothing bad can ever happen....
I live inside of the part of my own mind where I believe everything that my kids tell me and that they do no wrong...
How fucking gay and stupid am I?
My kids are normal people, coming out of this house, It's a goddamn wonder.....but all of them are free thinking individuals....I'm not looking to turn any of them into clones....they all have their own stuff going on....I 'm happy that they do.
Michelle needs to get her freaking drivers license and begin to act like an adult....ok, I'll give you that...other than that, I have some good freaking kids...
No pregnancies, that I know of, no crack induced stupor, no murders...ok, I know that that's extreme...
I'm just saying that I have 3 awesome kids and that I love spending time with them...we have fun and I enjoy my kids.....most days , anyways.
I'm just hoping that when my kids get to be my age , they don't have to look back and ask themselves....
"Just what have I done with my life ? "......
And come up empty.....
No soul should ever feel empty....
No soul should ever have to feel that it hasn't done that which it has been destined to do........
No soul should ever feel alone...
It's all good.