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I watched the worst movie I possibly could last night. The Notebook. The tears would not stop falling. Such a sad/amazing movie. Like I need to be more depressed. And I watched it by myself in the dark. That movie is the one movie you watch when you WANT or NEED to cry. Perhaps I needed to. But damn. I hate that feeling in your heart, that burning feeling when your heart literally breaks. Yeah, felt that. How pathetic...? I am a woman.
Lauren and Cardy both have to work and Lyndsey is at home for a few days. So I will be lonely. I think I am going to go walking through the parks of the Pleasant Mount. It will be nice to spend a couple of hours alone thinking. Maybe thinking isn't such a good idea. I always end up feeling depressed. We'll see I guess.
I am getting frustrated with this summer. This is pretty much my last summer of freedom before I go out into then real world. I will be doing my internship next summer. But this summer it seems like I won't be doing anything fun or adventurous. There's so much I want to do but I don't have the time or funds to do them. I want to go to Chicago and visit Shlee, go camping with Lauren and Erin, go to Macinac Island... But it looks like I won't be doing any of those things. Sadness. Even to spend 4 or 5 days in Howell would be nice.
I miss Matt. I am so lonely. I haven't talked to him in a few days. Our last conversation was a sad one. It is taking all of my own control to not pick up the phone and call him. I wish I had someone to hold me and hug me and kiss me. It's been so hard already.
Lauren and Cardy both have to work and Lyndsey is at home for a few days. So I will be lonely. I think I am going to go walking through the parks of the Pleasant Mount. It will be nice to spend a couple of hours alone thinking. Maybe thinking isn't such a good idea. I always end up feeling depressed. We'll see I guess.
I am getting frustrated with this summer. This is pretty much my last summer of freedom before I go out into then real world. I will be doing my internship next summer. But this summer it seems like I won't be doing anything fun or adventurous. There's so much I want to do but I don't have the time or funds to do them. I want to go to Chicago and visit Shlee, go camping with Lauren and Erin, go to Macinac Island... But it looks like I won't be doing any of those things. Sadness. Even to spend 4 or 5 days in Howell would be nice.
I miss Matt. I am so lonely. I haven't talked to him in a few days. Our last conversation was a sad one. It is taking all of my own control to not pick up the phone and call him. I wish I had someone to hold me and hug me and kiss me. It's been so hard already.