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I hate money!!! It's not cool to call someone the day their rent is due and tell them it's sky-rocketing to 325 instead of 220. NOT COOL. So now I have absolutely no money to spend on anything. I have 5 birthdays this month to buy for. Guess I'll be making lots of crafts.
Silly me I "lost" my phone... well I thought I did. It turns out I accidentally zipped it up into my CD case in my car. Goes along with all the other silly things I have been doing lately. Couldn't figure out why my camera wasn't working and then someone says: "Uh, Sarah, it's because the lens cap is still on." YEEEEEAH. I've been misplacing things and forgetting things. My head is somewhere else.
I've been very lonely since Matt and I broke up. I know it is for the best. But I got so comfortale and used to having him there whenever I wanted/needed him. Now, I have noone to snuggle with or to dry my tears or to make me smile. It's really hard to see my friends with their boyfriends. Makes me feel even more lonely. It's so hard to not call him and ask him to come over and be with me. I am just trying to keep myself busy with work. I probably will go home a lot more, if I have the money for gas. I miss him a lot. It's hard, but this time I know I am stronger than I used to be.
I have been thinking a lot about my attitude. I need to be more optimistic and stop thinking the world is out to get me. I also know I have not een myself lately. I have been mean to a lot of people that I love. They deserve better than that. That's part of the reason why Matt and I broke up. I can't change overnight, but I am trying.
I'm really missing my friends who aren't in the city with me. Shlee's in Chi-town, Ernie is in Kentucky, and Colleen and Monica are in Howell. I am glad I have my Lauren though. I would be going crazy without her. Loving living in Copper Beech with the roomies. We have a lot of fun together. This should be a fun month because all three of their birthdays are within a week. Lots of food and gifts and fun and laughs and lets not forget about the major drunkeness that Lauren and Lyndsey will be for their 21sts! YAY!
Muwah!
Silly me I "lost" my phone... well I thought I did. It turns out I accidentally zipped it up into my CD case in my car. Goes along with all the other silly things I have been doing lately. Couldn't figure out why my camera wasn't working and then someone says: "Uh, Sarah, it's because the lens cap is still on." YEEEEEAH. I've been misplacing things and forgetting things. My head is somewhere else.
I've been very lonely since Matt and I broke up. I know it is for the best. But I got so comfortale and used to having him there whenever I wanted/needed him. Now, I have noone to snuggle with or to dry my tears or to make me smile. It's really hard to see my friends with their boyfriends. Makes me feel even more lonely. It's so hard to not call him and ask him to come over and be with me. I am just trying to keep myself busy with work. I probably will go home a lot more, if I have the money for gas. I miss him a lot. It's hard, but this time I know I am stronger than I used to be.
I have been thinking a lot about my attitude. I need to be more optimistic and stop thinking the world is out to get me. I also know I have not een myself lately. I have been mean to a lot of people that I love. They deserve better than that. That's part of the reason why Matt and I broke up. I can't change overnight, but I am trying.
I'm really missing my friends who aren't in the city with me. Shlee's in Chi-town, Ernie is in Kentucky, and Colleen and Monica are in Howell. I am glad I have my Lauren though. I would be going crazy without her. Loving living in Copper Beech with the roomies. We have a lot of fun together. This should be a fun month because all three of their birthdays are within a week. Lots of food and gifts and fun and laughs and lets not forget about the major drunkeness that Lauren and Lyndsey will be for their 21sts! YAY!
Muwah!