my new beginning...just ended.
when i first moved from seattle to winter springs i walked into a classroom full of strangers always quick to judge. throughout that whole classroom there was one smiling face. of course as people got to know me the amounts of smiling faces grew. but from the first hello that was said to me she had been my best friend.
from showing up the students as well as the teachers in our english class to making asses of ourselves at the mall. to helping our boys get away with launching the water balloons at everyone at lunch. football games to prom. sleepovers to hangovers. from getting manicures and pedicures to mud wrestling. from crusing the strip in daytona to going to strip clubs. she has always there.
this afternoon a part of me died.
the part which i would say would be my better half since she always brought out the best in me. never once did she doubt me never once did she not support me. she always tried her hardest to urge me to succeed and when i wanted to quit she made me keep going. always sitting there with the best advice and never saying 'i told ya so' when i didnt listen and things happened just as she had said.
i dont know how to say goodbye to such a great friend.
i was sitting there one her couch just watching her pack and i cuold feel myself starting to cry. so quickly of course....i made an excuse that i had to go get ready for work just to cut our goodbyes short.
shutting the door felt like i was shutting myself down. i have nothing anymore to keep me going.
in my mind i know she will be back around christmas and ill get to see her for about two days before i leave to NYC but thats just not enough. ive seen her everyday for the past 2 years. its so hard to let go.
just know that ill always be here for you and ill never let you down. you believed in me more than anyone im my own family ever did.
thank you so much for everything.
i love you sarah.
<3
from showing up the students as well as the teachers in our english class to making asses of ourselves at the mall. to helping our boys get away with launching the water balloons at everyone at lunch. football games to prom. sleepovers to hangovers. from getting manicures and pedicures to mud wrestling. from crusing the strip in daytona to going to strip clubs. she has always there.
this afternoon a part of me died.
the part which i would say would be my better half since she always brought out the best in me. never once did she doubt me never once did she not support me. she always tried her hardest to urge me to succeed and when i wanted to quit she made me keep going. always sitting there with the best advice and never saying 'i told ya so' when i didnt listen and things happened just as she had said.
i dont know how to say goodbye to such a great friend.
i was sitting there one her couch just watching her pack and i cuold feel myself starting to cry. so quickly of course....i made an excuse that i had to go get ready for work just to cut our goodbyes short.
shutting the door felt like i was shutting myself down. i have nothing anymore to keep me going.
in my mind i know she will be back around christmas and ill get to see her for about two days before i leave to NYC but thats just not enough. ive seen her everyday for the past 2 years. its so hard to let go.
just know that ill always be here for you and ill never let you down. you believed in me more than anyone im my own family ever did.
thank you so much for everything.
i love you sarah.
<3