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I feel very alone. I think at this point I could be standing in a huge crowd of people and still feel like I'm all by myself. I'm trying to tell myself I never did anything to deserve some of the things that happen to me but I don't know why it continues to happen if I for some reason don't deserve it. I feel like I'm constantly losing... I can't talk to Ryan, me and Tayler are always up and down. Those are the two people I always trusted the most and I feel like I have no grip left. I know I have nothing left with Ryan, and I feel like I'm losing everything with Tayler. I feel like I can't stay happy, it takes so much for me to get there and it takes so little to ruin it. I can fake happy all day long but then its even easier to ruin it cause there's nothing holding it together. Apparently a lot of people are bein told to stay away from me because I'm just bad news. I love the feeling.
As soon as I start to get confident I'm given another reason to be everything but...
As soon as I start to get confident I'm given another reason to be everything but...