[Tuesday] bummed out
Christmas is in less than a week. YAY! I just had to get that out first.
So I work 6:30-2 on Christmas eve, which is great because then I have time for a nap and time to get ready before my dad's Christmas party. Superrr. I'm excited to be off work on Christmas day this year. I usually offer to work so I don't have to go to my grandma's house, but this year I'm not feeling so resentful. Plus I don't want them to hate me because I always find time to make it to my dad's. I work on New Year's Eve, too, but I have a problem. I told my manager I could work 4-9 or 4-10, and I got scheduled 3-9. My aunt, who is mentally retarded, lives in one of those group homes, and they're having a New Year's luncheon thingie, and I told my grandma I'd help out. But it's from 11-3, because we have to prepare and then clean up. Since I don't possess the magical powers to be in two places at once, I'm going to have to call my manager and tell him I can't come in until 4pm. I'm just afraid he'll say I have to stay until 10pm, which I really do not want to do. I'm doing something with my mom, because I don't want her to be alone, and it would be kind of crappy to make her sit here alone until I get home at 10:30pm, ya know? Granted we're probably just hanging out and ordered pizza and watching the ball drop, but still, who wants to be all alone on New Year's? And it's not like I didn't tell my manager that I couldn't come in until 4:00. I'll be pretty mad if he says I have to stay until 10:00, because I'm already working Christmas eve, and I've worked Christmas day for the past 3 years along with a couple New Year's Eve's, and there's tons of clerks who got the night off and don't work on Christmas, either. And I only offered to work it because it was Stacie's shift, and Jeremy was going to work with me, but now they both aren't going to be there, so I'm working with a manager I don't know and two clerks I've barely met. It's just kind of frustrating, and now I really don't want to work that night at all. I wish John would have offered to take Stacie's shift before I said I'd work, otherwise I definitely wouldn't have offered. I'm kind of bummed out about it all.
On top of all that, I've been feeling sick ever since I got back from Tennessee. Sunday night I woke up at like 4am and threw up twice, then I had a charlie horse in my calf muscle at 6am. I've just felt blah ever since, and I think I'm getting a cold. Yeah I know I'm whining, but oh well. My throat hurts, too, and I keep coughing. I hope I'm not sick on Christmas. That would suck. If I only I could get sick by New Year's Eve...haha, but even if I really was, it's not like anyone would believe me. I'm not sure if my manager even believes I'm hanging out with my mom on New Year's Eve, but who cares. He's made comments before insinuating that I go out all of the time, but if he really knew me, he'd know I NEVER, EVER go out. Part of it is because during the semester I was way too busy with homework to do anything, plus there's the having no money issue, along with the not having anyone to hang out with issue. I've seen a few movies with my step-sister, but that's about it, and the only time (since last MAY) that I drank was on Halloween at my cousins party. I know I shouldn't care what other people think, but for some crazy reason, I do...
I really want a salad right now, but I don't feel like leaving to get one. I also wish my stupid report card would come in the mail already. My stepsister got hers, so mine should be here any day now. I'm doing some shopping with mom tonight, to get the rest of my Christmas stuff, which is clothes for student teaching. I really do not feel up to it, but there's not really any other days we could do it before the stores get crammed with last minute shoppers. I'm calling my stepsister Erica tonight and seeing if I can stop by tomorrow during the day to see her and my niece, Brooke. Then I have to help mom bake cookies in the evening. I'm also asking Erica if I can come over on Thursday to hang out. I'm trying to go over there when Paula and Shelly are at work so I can actually get some Brooke time alone. I haven't been getting any calls for substitute teaching this week, which I guess isn't a surprise, because teachers probably try not to call in the few days before winter break. Anyway, I guess I should finish getting ready so we can leave after mom gets home and eats dinner.