Saturday
it's just not like it used to be. Remember when you were little and you spent all of Saturday out playing. I know, I do this still.. but not today. I spent a lot of time online talking to my sister. She had to leave and put the kids to bed... I thought that she would be back but after an hour she still hadn't returned. Oh well, she is a busy girl. I went to Ruby Tuesdays with Mark and Joc, but as I had just eaten a sandwich I was just there for company. Then we came back home and vegged out till seven... then it was off to the not so surprise baby shower. I haven't said anything about it because LadyLish wasn't supposed to know about it... but scheduling conflicts happened and she had to be told. All in all it was a good time. Lisha looks so pretty even if she doesn't believe me. We had noshies and soda and watched her open many gifts. I can't wiat till I can have kids. I know it sounds funny but I want to be pregnant. I want to have lots of babies. Oh well, hopefully my time will come all though my hormonal issues want to keep me from it. After the shower it was back to the Falcon again for more vegging in front of the tube. *sigh* Life seems to have gotten mundane on me. I suppose that I should feel secure in the same day to day thing.... but it is a little upsetting. I will be turning 25 in June.. a century of my life will be gone and what have I done with it? I have a house, three cats and a wonderful husband. These things I love and I know I wouldn't trade them for all the money in the world. But there are so many things that I want to do. I want to get my music back, I want to get my novels back, I want to get my painting back. But I never seem to find the time and when I have the time I don't want to do anything at all. Sad but true... I am the same result of what happens to 9 out of 10 artists. They lose it, get caught up in mundane life and are never heard from again. It's not what I want... but what do I want... and how can I get it? Darklings, Ciao...