ang sarap maging ate!

[angelphia]

i had this realization this week when i got the chance to internalize my role in our community. i get to lead a group of girls and try to make their lives better through our prayer meetings and weekly apostolate work in the park. for almost 10 years now i have been part of this community. i have seen people join, leave and some come back. i was the super taray leader before who had this thinking "if i could do it, if i can attend and handle school at the same time, you can and should too." little by little, i'm learning. you get to give them longer patience for in the end, i was able to realize that i cannot control them. you can guide and give advice but the decision is still up to them. i know i would be disappointed for those times that you know they're not doing what you want them to do. if that happens, grieve for some time but you have to swallow your pride after some time, smile and be ready to welcome them back the same way that the father welcomed his prodigal son.

whew! i'm getting so serious about this task but it did mold me to be a better person. it didn't take me 10 meetings to have this kind of thinking. years! and now i'm just grateful for i was led to this path. i'm not the perfect leader. i may sound so insightful during meetings but there are still a lot to learn. the good thing is my drive to get better is still there.

if one day i get depress in life, i have to remember this. i was given the chance the move people closer to God. it's not easy but it's fulfilling.

will sleep now with a happy heart, good night!