Holy crap..!! Almost 2 years later?? What happened?
Sigh.. What a journey..
Well, September of that 2005, I lost my brother, my grandma, and a friend all within 3 months of each other.. November of 2005 I went out to California to see Chris (Westbrook). A good friend. One of my best friends actually.. Things were pretty good. With the exception of Tia.. What is it with girls being so dramatic?! The hardest year of my life, but seemed to be the best year. (Until this year, but we'll get to that later).. After breaking up with Paul, Chance and I got really close again.. Him and Jenny got divorced. And remarried i guess??.. So.. Jenny got pregnant again and had her 3rd child with Chance.. I haven't heard from him in what seems like forever.. So, after Chance and I stopped talking, Chris (Hacker) and I got engaged.. So.. That didn't turn out so good.. I was with him for a mere 3 months before that just went down the drain.... About 2 months after Chris H and I split up, Doug and I got together... Sigh.. When Doug and I originally got together, things were great.. Then.. I started talking to Will and he got livid and I stopped talking to him.. (will) So.. I got my cell number changed and got my head back where it should have been. Last December, Doug and I planned on having a baby together. He asked me outright "if you get pregnant are you just going to leave me right after?" My response? "Yeah because that's what I want, a baby so I can raise him/her on my own, right?" So, I stopped taking my birth control. February 3rd.. My first positive pregnancy test.. Doug and I were doing okay.. Thought we had been fighting a lot.. Things seemed to be calmer once I found out that I was for sure pregnant. Then one day, things just blew up... We got in a really big fight and things went to a level that they should have never went and I was done. I wasn't about to raise a baby with all the fighting and all the anger and hostility.. I mean, really, can ya blame me? Doug and I split up In February.. Between Doug and I splitting up and my date with Panda was gosh.. 8 months I believe. That was the first time of leaving Jeryson with a babysitter.. We went and had dinner and then went to a movie. Things just didn't click the way I was looking for.. So we remain somewhat friends? I haven't talked to him in a while..
So.. June of this year, my mom talked me into joining LDS Mingle.. *sigh* I totally thought it was going to go bad because I was pregnant joining an LDS dating site... Sounds weird eh?.. One of the very first guys that I talked to on there was Joseph.. Joseph and I started talking quite a bit.. At first anyhow.. But we just remained friends.. When I was getting closer to having Jeryson, I started to have feelings for him more than friends and let him know about this.. I had Jeryson September 21st.. Joseph went to Missouri November I believe it was?? To go see a girl named Cassie.. *sigh*.. Things.. Just.. Didn't work out.. Is it a bad thing that i was kinda happy about this? Ha! Anyway, November... Joseph decided to tell me that he did have feelings for me more than friends.. He came out for Thanksgiving and met my family. And we went out to his grandparents house and I met his family. Joseph and I really grew to love each other. He became the closest friend that I could ever imagine. Him and I did end up together and i'm sure you have all gathered from this. And i'm sure everyone knows how much I love him and care about him. I couldn't be happier. Jeryson has taken to him really well. :) Which is a REALLY good thing, yeah? I love him more than I have ever loved any guy. And I want to spend my life with him. I don't smoke anymore.. Not since I got pregnant with Jeryson. I haven't drank for a little bit now.. And I am going back to church.. Odd huh? Miss Mindy.. Going back to church and changing her life around. Now, here it is.. December again.. And as I write this, I am sitting in Joseph's room on his laptop.. Waiting for him to go on lunch from work so I can talk to him.. I miss him already and I just saw him at 6:30. 4 hours ago!... So my love, here's to you, here's to us, and here's to our future. May everything go as planned, and may we work out all differences between us so that our relationship never fails. I love you.
<3
♥ Mindy ♥
Well, September of that 2005, I lost my brother, my grandma, and a friend all within 3 months of each other.. November of 2005 I went out to California to see Chris (Westbrook). A good friend. One of my best friends actually.. Things were pretty good. With the exception of Tia.. What is it with girls being so dramatic?! The hardest year of my life, but seemed to be the best year. (Until this year, but we'll get to that later).. After breaking up with Paul, Chance and I got really close again.. Him and Jenny got divorced. And remarried i guess??.. So.. Jenny got pregnant again and had her 3rd child with Chance.. I haven't heard from him in what seems like forever.. So, after Chance and I stopped talking, Chris (Hacker) and I got engaged.. So.. That didn't turn out so good.. I was with him for a mere 3 months before that just went down the drain.... About 2 months after Chris H and I split up, Doug and I got together... Sigh.. When Doug and I originally got together, things were great.. Then.. I started talking to Will and he got livid and I stopped talking to him.. (will) So.. I got my cell number changed and got my head back where it should have been. Last December, Doug and I planned on having a baby together. He asked me outright "if you get pregnant are you just going to leave me right after?" My response? "Yeah because that's what I want, a baby so I can raise him/her on my own, right?" So, I stopped taking my birth control. February 3rd.. My first positive pregnancy test.. Doug and I were doing okay.. Thought we had been fighting a lot.. Things seemed to be calmer once I found out that I was for sure pregnant. Then one day, things just blew up... We got in a really big fight and things went to a level that they should have never went and I was done. I wasn't about to raise a baby with all the fighting and all the anger and hostility.. I mean, really, can ya blame me? Doug and I split up In February.. Between Doug and I splitting up and my date with Panda was gosh.. 8 months I believe. That was the first time of leaving Jeryson with a babysitter.. We went and had dinner and then went to a movie. Things just didn't click the way I was looking for.. So we remain somewhat friends? I haven't talked to him in a while..
So.. June of this year, my mom talked me into joining LDS Mingle.. *sigh* I totally thought it was going to go bad because I was pregnant joining an LDS dating site... Sounds weird eh?.. One of the very first guys that I talked to on there was Joseph.. Joseph and I started talking quite a bit.. At first anyhow.. But we just remained friends.. When I was getting closer to having Jeryson, I started to have feelings for him more than friends and let him know about this.. I had Jeryson September 21st.. Joseph went to Missouri November I believe it was?? To go see a girl named Cassie.. *sigh*.. Things.. Just.. Didn't work out.. Is it a bad thing that i was kinda happy about this? Ha! Anyway, November... Joseph decided to tell me that he did have feelings for me more than friends.. He came out for Thanksgiving and met my family. And we went out to his grandparents house and I met his family. Joseph and I really grew to love each other. He became the closest friend that I could ever imagine. Him and I did end up together and i'm sure you have all gathered from this. And i'm sure everyone knows how much I love him and care about him. I couldn't be happier. Jeryson has taken to him really well. :) Which is a REALLY good thing, yeah? I love him more than I have ever loved any guy. And I want to spend my life with him. I don't smoke anymore.. Not since I got pregnant with Jeryson. I haven't drank for a little bit now.. And I am going back to church.. Odd huh? Miss Mindy.. Going back to church and changing her life around. Now, here it is.. December again.. And as I write this, I am sitting in Joseph's room on his laptop.. Waiting for him to go on lunch from work so I can talk to him.. I miss him already and I just saw him at 6:30. 4 hours ago!... So my love, here's to you, here's to us, and here's to our future. May everything go as planned, and may we work out all differences between us so that our relationship never fails. I love you.
<3
♥ Mindy ♥