Does it all make me naieve?
I find it harder and harder to trust people as this year has progressed. I've also found myself getting screwed over by quite a few people. Is everyone really just dishonest? Am I too naieve to protect myself? I mean I don't get it. What did I do? Since when is being a friend to someone enough to get screwed over? I know that I may not always be the nicest person, or the coolest person, but I think I've been a damn good friend to a lot of people. But apparently for a few people, that's not enough, because you can't socially advance if you're friends with me? Well...at least not in certain social circles. Because after all, it's not cool to be friends with me. Yeah, gotta love it. Hey guess what, it doesnt matter. It's really dumb that you almost seem to be embarassed by me. I helped you a lot, so don't you forget it.
Another note to someone else. Thanks so much for just completely taking me out of your life. It means a lot to me that you find it so easy to just delete me from your life. It's really very heart warming. We might have had a few rockey moments, but I was damn good to you. I'm not saying you weren't to me, but I think after what went down between us I diserve something a little bit better. I diserve an explination, I thought you'd get that. and I thought you were mature enough to do that. In case you didn't get it, you were one of my best friends, I don't think I ever told you, but at the time I had never felt closer to anyone than I did to you. And I thought that you felt the same way. You may have at one point, but it's gone now, I think it was gone for a while. And you just let me sit there like a damn fool while I think there's hope for us to still have something. Thanks a frekin lot.
People are slowly starting to turn on me, not everyone, and I know there are people that care about me. But day after day it's getting harder for me to trust people because it seems like I keep getting screwed over. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to end up bitter and against everyone. I want to be above that, but I find it harder and harder to think that everyone is good. ...I guess it's all part of growing up? My friends used to tell me I was somewhat naieve to think that everyone was good, they say that to people in movies and t.v. too ya know. that not everyone is good, in fact some people think that everyone is bad. I used to think to myself "it's a damn shame, they are the ones that are naieve, people really are good" But I'm starting to think that I'm the one that's wrong. It makes me sad...
Another note to someone else. Thanks so much for just completely taking me out of your life. It means a lot to me that you find it so easy to just delete me from your life. It's really very heart warming. We might have had a few rockey moments, but I was damn good to you. I'm not saying you weren't to me, but I think after what went down between us I diserve something a little bit better. I diserve an explination, I thought you'd get that. and I thought you were mature enough to do that. In case you didn't get it, you were one of my best friends, I don't think I ever told you, but at the time I had never felt closer to anyone than I did to you. And I thought that you felt the same way. You may have at one point, but it's gone now, I think it was gone for a while. And you just let me sit there like a damn fool while I think there's hope for us to still have something. Thanks a frekin lot.
People are slowly starting to turn on me, not everyone, and I know there are people that care about me. But day after day it's getting harder for me to trust people because it seems like I keep getting screwed over. I don't want that to happen. I don't want to end up bitter and against everyone. I want to be above that, but I find it harder and harder to think that everyone is good. ...I guess it's all part of growing up? My friends used to tell me I was somewhat naieve to think that everyone was good, they say that to people in movies and t.v. too ya know. that not everyone is good, in fact some people think that everyone is bad. I used to think to myself "it's a damn shame, they are the ones that are naieve, people really are good" But I'm starting to think that I'm the one that's wrong. It makes me sad...