Friends
Friends are pretty cool things. They make you feel better when you are sad,
they support you when you feel left down in the dirt. They can cheer your mood
with just a few words or actions.
They can also sell you up the river and make a mockery of your affection and trust.
And I like having friends, I guess.
I enjoy the company of other human beings, sometimes.
My issue is this; I feel like engaging in activities that require other human beings requires
too much energy for too little profit. So I rarely attempt it, although I have a few spontaneous
occasions where I will work on friendships, and work up the energy to strengthen relations
with others.
Most of the time though, I get let down. I get depressed about society even more than I was,
and want to just stop dealing with people who will inevitably let me down, lie to me, cause
me stress, and ultimately give me no honest reason why i sure care about them.
Is having warm bodies present during standard actions, cinema, eating rituals and outings
so important to the equation that one must sacrifice autonomy and their own free will to
perform them correctly? I think not. Besides the obvious exceptions (tandem bicycling,
synchronized swimming, ballroom dancing and cage fighting) most activities can be safely
preformed solo.
I don't see the appeal of other human beings present. They provide nothing more than alternative
retorts to each others comments, which, if you found them funny, would most likely have come
to you eventually, on your own accord.
But I continue to associate with people, hang out, socialize, enjoy companionship. Why?
Because it's the status quo, and you look odd if you refrain from social exercise. Besides, there
is always that slim chance that maybe one day I will truly and completely enjoy the people I
am with and the sole act of being with them while I do things.
Maybe a pipe dream, but i consider it an okay one.
they support you when you feel left down in the dirt. They can cheer your mood
with just a few words or actions.
They can also sell you up the river and make a mockery of your affection and trust.
And I like having friends, I guess.
I enjoy the company of other human beings, sometimes.
My issue is this; I feel like engaging in activities that require other human beings requires
too much energy for too little profit. So I rarely attempt it, although I have a few spontaneous
occasions where I will work on friendships, and work up the energy to strengthen relations
with others.
Most of the time though, I get let down. I get depressed about society even more than I was,
and want to just stop dealing with people who will inevitably let me down, lie to me, cause
me stress, and ultimately give me no honest reason why i sure care about them.
Is having warm bodies present during standard actions, cinema, eating rituals and outings
so important to the equation that one must sacrifice autonomy and their own free will to
perform them correctly? I think not. Besides the obvious exceptions (tandem bicycling,
synchronized swimming, ballroom dancing and cage fighting) most activities can be safely
preformed solo.
I don't see the appeal of other human beings present. They provide nothing more than alternative
retorts to each others comments, which, if you found them funny, would most likely have come
to you eventually, on your own accord.
But I continue to associate with people, hang out, socialize, enjoy companionship. Why?
Because it's the status quo, and you look odd if you refrain from social exercise. Besides, there
is always that slim chance that maybe one day I will truly and completely enjoy the people I
am with and the sole act of being with them while I do things.
Maybe a pipe dream, but i consider it an okay one.