Random thoughts at four am
I feel that there is a great downside to being friends with people so much older than me, which is my maturity. I mean, for all the smarts and apparent maturity I have on some things, emotionally I'm still very much immature. Completely so, to the point where someone being in a relationship with me has proven to simply be difficult and unhelpful.
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Responsibility is overrated. You can have it and still be quite immature (but in a good way, mind you.), I find myself quite often lately wanting to shout the same thing. It's something that happens and it's best to take it as it comes. When you have to be responsible, do it well, when you don't, act childish and pretend to be a lot younger than you actually are! It's how I get by.
Growing up is also, overrated. I'm sorry that something like this has got in the way of relationships for you but perhaps you're being a bit too severe on yourself (and also, the other people might be as well)? I'm horrible for asking, as I am constantly overly critical of myself, but if I thought for a moment that I had to buckle down and let go of the things that made me happy and made me feel that I didn't have to be an adult for two seconds: I'd lose my mind.
Perhaps it is childish and immature to not think on responsibility but sometimes, it's the best thing. I'm a firm believer that you don't start getting 'old' until you stop having fun. Too many people force the issue of growing up nowadays and some people still might not have a very childish childhood.
Savor it. Be childish and immature and when you have to act like an adult and buckle down? Dazzle them with how well you can switch, cause just because you're a certain age doesn't mean that you have to end up being grumpy and old and proper about things. And it certainly doesn't make you incapable of handling certain things if you set your mind to it.
*hugs and love*
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