Watch it spin around into... oblivion...
Why is it, one day you're relatively sure of how you're going to do things and then suddenly all your foot holds disappear?
That's how I feel right now. And it's not all bad... it's just scary.
School is even further up in the air than before because I might be changing locales and all of that. I still haven't been able to talk to my father about it. I mean, I emailed him the information, but he never replied back.
I feel confused. Dazed. Like life is a blur right now and I'm left in the dust because I can't catch hold. I don't want to screw up.
Sleep is horrible. I'm trying to fix it and it isn't working. I've gotten some ideas. I'm trying ear plugs right now, but the cheapie foam ones fall out and then I can't find them without waking up too much. The house is hotter than hell because of that horrible old woman that lives here and I can't sleep with so much heat. I'm even trying gems on my nightstand that are supposed to promote sleep and good dreams in pagan religions. And still I'm sleeping badly. Hopefully I can find a good set of ear plug, maybe get an eye mask so there isn't too much light, and make sure the AC is on at night... that's all I can hope for.
Fizzi is being a pain in the ass recently too. I think it's because she and I don't spend as much time together as we used to. I need to cut back computer time, honestly, get some more reading in as I've been wanting to. I think she feels lonely these days, even though she's around me and has the other dogs to play with.
Life with unwind itself, though, I hope. This knots will dissolve t=or undo itself and a different one will form. But at least this one will be over with and I won't feel so baffled.
Loves,
~Rio~
That's how I feel right now. And it's not all bad... it's just scary.
School is even further up in the air than before because I might be changing locales and all of that. I still haven't been able to talk to my father about it. I mean, I emailed him the information, but he never replied back.
I feel confused. Dazed. Like life is a blur right now and I'm left in the dust because I can't catch hold. I don't want to screw up.
Sleep is horrible. I'm trying to fix it and it isn't working. I've gotten some ideas. I'm trying ear plugs right now, but the cheapie foam ones fall out and then I can't find them without waking up too much. The house is hotter than hell because of that horrible old woman that lives here and I can't sleep with so much heat. I'm even trying gems on my nightstand that are supposed to promote sleep and good dreams in pagan religions. And still I'm sleeping badly. Hopefully I can find a good set of ear plug, maybe get an eye mask so there isn't too much light, and make sure the AC is on at night... that's all I can hope for.
Fizzi is being a pain in the ass recently too. I think it's because she and I don't spend as much time together as we used to. I need to cut back computer time, honestly, get some more reading in as I've been wanting to. I think she feels lonely these days, even though she's around me and has the other dogs to play with.
Life with unwind itself, though, I hope. This knots will dissolve t=or undo itself and a different one will form. But at least this one will be over with and I won't feel so baffled.
Loves,
~Rio~