Just thinking...
Forgive the randomness....
So, I'm just sitting here on my lunch at work. So much is going through my head, I don't even know if I can explain it. For some reason, I'm sitting here growing even more stressed as the day goes by. it's been a regular day, and there was nothing much out of the ordinary this morning. I can't even fully explain it. I feel like I'm touched by utter sadness as well. I don't know if I'm picking up on someone else's energy, causing me to be uber-stressed, or if it's just the usual products of my overactive brain. I'm just stressed... maybe because getting my work done is going slower than I'd like it to, maybe because I have to drive to places I have no idea where I'm going, maybe it's personal issues. I wish I knew. I'm sad for different reasons... a co-worker's baby is intensive care, a new friend is dealing with a serious illness, 2 people I know recently just lost loved ones, and this whole divorce thing is so painfully, devestatingly sad. This whole process is going to be so hard to get through. I'm touched how much my friends and especially my parents are reaching out, but it's still so hard. I think I'm starting my period as well, which will only exasterbate my moods. I wish a certain someone would contact me, but again, he proves that what we have is a general friendship at best. I'm seriously in like with another person, but he barely even knows I'm alive. If I'm not meant to be in a relationship, I'd like to stop falling for people, please!!! Anyways... just randomness in an effort to try to relieve this intensity. I feel some poetry coming on...
So, I'm just sitting here on my lunch at work. So much is going through my head, I don't even know if I can explain it. For some reason, I'm sitting here growing even more stressed as the day goes by. it's been a regular day, and there was nothing much out of the ordinary this morning. I can't even fully explain it. I feel like I'm touched by utter sadness as well. I don't know if I'm picking up on someone else's energy, causing me to be uber-stressed, or if it's just the usual products of my overactive brain. I'm just stressed... maybe because getting my work done is going slower than I'd like it to, maybe because I have to drive to places I have no idea where I'm going, maybe it's personal issues. I wish I knew. I'm sad for different reasons... a co-worker's baby is intensive care, a new friend is dealing with a serious illness, 2 people I know recently just lost loved ones, and this whole divorce thing is so painfully, devestatingly sad. This whole process is going to be so hard to get through. I'm touched how much my friends and especially my parents are reaching out, but it's still so hard. I think I'm starting my period as well, which will only exasterbate my moods. I wish a certain someone would contact me, but again, he proves that what we have is a general friendship at best. I'm seriously in like with another person, but he barely even knows I'm alive. If I'm not meant to be in a relationship, I'd like to stop falling for people, please!!! Anyways... just randomness in an effort to try to relieve this intensity. I feel some poetry coming on...