happy birthday to me

[angeloffire]

so today was my b-day and when i woke up this morning my dad was away on business and my mom and younger brother were to angry at eachother to wish me a happy b-day. then school came and everything became better everyone said happy birthday i hugged this random girl which had the same b-day as me the whole shabang. emma got me ballons and nadav got me an outragously generous gift. during elective period dani jason emma jill and i went to pizza and brew and ordered pizza and milkshakes and it was fun then i payed with my dads credit card. then we had play practive which i think went well.. concidering we only have 2 scenes of our play and one song. then i went home where my mom and my brother picked me out and they had decided that we should go out to dinner even though neither my dad or my older brother were here. so we went- i didnt tell my mom i had pizza- and ended up ordering a salad and cheesecake- yum. the waitors sang me happy b-day and it was all fun. then we were on the way back home when i called my dad because i had realized that i told him to get me the 5MB ipod when i wanted the 10MB ipod, so my mom heard this and got so pissed off because we didnt discuss it as a family what they're getting me as a b-day present. yadi yadi yada and she starts ranting and raving and acting all bitchy. then we got home and my mom and dad fought on the phone for a half hour then my mom came up to my room and blamed all her marital problems on me yelled and screemed about how she feels like shit in this family when we hide things behind her back-- can you say paranoia? so she stoped out befor i got a chance to ask her how she thought i felt when she blames problems between my dad and her on me. but whats the use? she doesnt listen to anything i say. so just as i start crying stacy calls and tells me she is going to buy me uggs for my b-day and that she bought me something from paris that she forgets to give my dad, this makes me feel somewhat better... but then is start doing history work again and i start feeling like shit. i guess sometimes i feel like my mom only cares about herself.. i mean seriously why would she do this to me on a day that im supose to feel happy that im getting older? i guess ill never understand her.

gnight
ella

P.S.
today i had one of emma's balloons on my wrist that had 'happy b-day' on it when i hear Dr. Spiegel who was talking to a couple of men who i assumed were looking at the school or something
he started to call emma! emma! is it your sweet 16? i was a little comfused when i realized he was talking to me.. but i didnt want to emmbarece him infront of the people so i said yeah.. but then adam with his big mouth is like.. 'ehh thats not emma... that ella' i felt so bad.. i mean he was only trying to be nice.. and he only got my name wrong by 2 letters.. i hope he didnt feel bad about it..