What A Day.
It's three in the morning, I have to be at work in five hours. Tonight we didn't end up going to the club..we were at the hospital from 10:30 until 2am. So needless to say I'm tired and cranky a bit. I was surprised again today, another bear, a box of chocolates, and another rose. I must say, this is proving to be the most I've ever gotten for V-day. Tonight gave me a chance to once again not worry about anything, as circumstances were too hectic. I must say however that is something I am thankful for. And all I can say, is that who ever I Do end up with, and when I do get pregnant, if I get pregnant, I hope to hell I never go through what Ashley has been through.
Now that I am home, I find my mind wondering about that certain someone. Not so much as to what they're doing, but how they're feeling and what is going on in their head. I will find out soon enough I suppose, though I must say, I haven't even had the urge to get in contact with them. Does it mean I'm letting go? Not by any stretch..perhaps it is the simple will-power to prove a point and stick to said point. Perhaps the decision I'm waiting on won't even be made by Saturday, perhaps I myself will have come to a decision, or said person will have come to a decision when all is said and done before the seven days is up. Who knows.
I wonder if I'm missed, or if I am thought of, and yet part of me isn't worried about it. I'm finding more and more comfort in the idea that things will fall into place the way they are meant to. I don't nessessarily have to like them, and maybe I will, but I am letting go and waiting to see what happens next. In the mean time...I'm going to bed. Tomorrow should prove interesting. Then Pat, Ashley, and David are coming to pick me up. Perhaps we will hit the club tomorrow (Or tonight for all you nitpicky people). Either way, they all seem to understand that I need to keep my mind busy...and they are helping with that. I don't have to worry about waiting to fall asleep tonight though. And one more thing..I am finding that my dreams are not reaching out and finding the one person who is still on my mind. Perhaps I have come to the realization taht things may not work...and I'm preparing myself for the worse, perhaps to lessen the blow if things don't work out. If they do..great..if not...I'll always be okay.
Nobody's Perfect
Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days
Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days
Everybody knows what, what I’m talkin 'bout
Everybody gets that way
Everybody gets that way (Yeah)
Sometimes in a jam
I gotta make a plan
It might be crazy
I do it anyway
No way to know for sure
I figure out a cure
I’m patching up the holes
But then it overflows
If I’m not doing to well
Why be so hard on myself
Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again til I get it right
Nobody’s perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes
Nobody’s perfect
Sometimes I work a scheme
But then it flips on me
Doesn’t turn out how I planned
Gets stuck in quick-sand
No problem can’t be solved
Once I get involved
I try to be delicate
Then crash right into it
But my intentions are good
Sometimes just mis-understood
Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again til I get it right
Nobody’s perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes
Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
I know this time I’ll find a way
Nobody’s perfect
Sometimes I fix things up
And they fall apart again
I might mix things up
But I always get it right in the end
Next time you feel like,
It's just one of those days,
When you just can't seem to win
If things don't go the way that you guys planned,
Figure something else out!
Don't stay down! Try again!
Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again til I get it right
Nobody's perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes,
Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
I know in time I'll find a way,
Nobody's perfect,
You live and you learn it
‘Cuz everybody makes mistakes
Nobody's perfect
Now that I am home, I find my mind wondering about that certain someone. Not so much as to what they're doing, but how they're feeling and what is going on in their head. I will find out soon enough I suppose, though I must say, I haven't even had the urge to get in contact with them. Does it mean I'm letting go? Not by any stretch..perhaps it is the simple will-power to prove a point and stick to said point. Perhaps the decision I'm waiting on won't even be made by Saturday, perhaps I myself will have come to a decision, or said person will have come to a decision when all is said and done before the seven days is up. Who knows.
I wonder if I'm missed, or if I am thought of, and yet part of me isn't worried about it. I'm finding more and more comfort in the idea that things will fall into place the way they are meant to. I don't nessessarily have to like them, and maybe I will, but I am letting go and waiting to see what happens next. In the mean time...I'm going to bed. Tomorrow should prove interesting. Then Pat, Ashley, and David are coming to pick me up. Perhaps we will hit the club tomorrow (Or tonight for all you nitpicky people). Either way, they all seem to understand that I need to keep my mind busy...and they are helping with that. I don't have to worry about waiting to fall asleep tonight though. And one more thing..I am finding that my dreams are not reaching out and finding the one person who is still on my mind. Perhaps I have come to the realization taht things may not work...and I'm preparing myself for the worse, perhaps to lessen the blow if things don't work out. If they do..great..if not...I'll always be okay.
Nobody's Perfect
Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days
Everybody makes mistakes
Everybody has those days
Everybody knows what, what I’m talkin 'bout
Everybody gets that way
Everybody gets that way (Yeah)
Sometimes in a jam
I gotta make a plan
It might be crazy
I do it anyway
No way to know for sure
I figure out a cure
I’m patching up the holes
But then it overflows
If I’m not doing to well
Why be so hard on myself
Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again til I get it right
Nobody’s perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes
Nobody’s perfect
Sometimes I work a scheme
But then it flips on me
Doesn’t turn out how I planned
Gets stuck in quick-sand
No problem can’t be solved
Once I get involved
I try to be delicate
Then crash right into it
But my intentions are good
Sometimes just mis-understood
Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again til I get it right
Nobody’s perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes
Nobody’s perfect
I gotta work it
I know this time I’ll find a way
Nobody’s perfect
Sometimes I fix things up
And they fall apart again
I might mix things up
But I always get it right in the end
Next time you feel like,
It's just one of those days,
When you just can't seem to win
If things don't go the way that you guys planned,
Figure something else out!
Don't stay down! Try again!
Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
Again and again til I get it right
Nobody's perfect
You live and you learn it
And if I mess it up sometimes,
Nobody's perfect
I gotta work it
I know in time I'll find a way,
Nobody's perfect,
You live and you learn it
‘Cuz everybody makes mistakes
Nobody's perfect