Sad Mewl
Everyone that matters has either gone to bed or gone home. My mom is planning on killing my spring break and I was hoping to go to Momocon with L. I mean I was really looking forward to it---but knowing my mom and at this rate. . .I need to head off to materialized hell soon and hopefully find my guitar hero 2 if that bitch hasn't done anything drastic with it.
For some strange reason I feel a tad bit lonely and I really want a hug. This weekend is going to be nonexistant since I have to do all this crap for a shitty class that 99% of the class hates anyway. This weekend might definately be one in my room, I feel like my head is about to explode. Sigh this is a severe irritation since I haven't been depressed in a very long time. If my wonderful suitemate doesn't bother the shit out of me maybe I'll have a free moment to clear my head and get to the bottom of this.
It would be awesome if I could just curl up in the arms of the person I love right now. Heh, but that's a wish as stupid as a ghost trying to reach out to the living to whom it is nothing more than a figment of memory. Sometimes I wish I didn't have the capacity to love or feel anything at all. Well, I won't say wish because I once had that capacity. Or maybe I"m just being stupid.Gah L had good sense. My room reeks of a thousand sorrows and a thousand failed attempts at dreaming. Too bad this weekend I can't escape from it---too much fucking work.
"With you my heart has no dry place to stay
Without you my life has none either"
For some strange reason I feel a tad bit lonely and I really want a hug. This weekend is going to be nonexistant since I have to do all this crap for a shitty class that 99% of the class hates anyway. This weekend might definately be one in my room, I feel like my head is about to explode. Sigh this is a severe irritation since I haven't been depressed in a very long time. If my wonderful suitemate doesn't bother the shit out of me maybe I'll have a free moment to clear my head and get to the bottom of this.
It would be awesome if I could just curl up in the arms of the person I love right now. Heh, but that's a wish as stupid as a ghost trying to reach out to the living to whom it is nothing more than a figment of memory. Sometimes I wish I didn't have the capacity to love or feel anything at all. Well, I won't say wish because I once had that capacity. Or maybe I"m just being stupid.Gah L had good sense. My room reeks of a thousand sorrows and a thousand failed attempts at dreaming. Too bad this weekend I can't escape from it---too much fucking work.
"With you my heart has no dry place to stay
Without you my life has none either"