i cant stand us not talking...
its prolly not the best idea to write about the good days when your in a not happy mood... and things are perdy sucky for me right now... maybe if i write about happy times it will make me be happy... ? we'll see if it works... my hypothesis: it wont work.
saturday karen, bein the wonderful friend that she is... journeyed the distance to my house on her bicycle... facing deadly automobiles and uh... the hot heat... and she just kinda showed up on my doorstep... heh... so we hung out for the afternoon... but then she had to go to a soccer thing so she left... i stayed up till like 3 (this should prolly go for sundays paragraph thingy huh?)... i never do that when im by myself... matt and paul made me call them... but then they hung up on me after like a minute and a half... hehe... i uh... used my moms cell phone to call them so its gunna show up on the bill and i dont really know why i did it... hah i didnt care and still really dont... and i dont think my mom will mind but i was supposed to be asleep so i dunnnooo
sunday i had to wake up at 7 to go to church... (thats why i was supposed to be asleep)... i came home and took a 3 hour nap... you know its gettin really hard for me to fall asleep at night... like it takes me hours to finally drift off... i dont know why... i really dont like it... i think its because for 1 ive got a lot on my mind even though its summer and 2 i sleep till like noon when i finally do fall asleep... i hate sleeping away half of the day! i really do... i called matt and paul again but not as late... and i didnt really talk... i feel bad... i listened to them talk and play with ringtones for like an hour... then i tryed to go to sleep... yeah that worked out real good....
monday im like sitting on the couch and my moms like whitney get ready we're goin to town... so i got ready a lil hesitantly and we went and ate and went shopping... so it wasnt bad like i thought it'd be... i wanted to stay at home though... ive got my reasons... i went swimmin when i got back though... ive only done that like... four times this summer... but thats alright because its not my favorite thing in the world to do...
yesterday my sister called me and asked if i wanted to hang out and well i did of course because what else was i gunna do (and i like my sister)... so she came home and i went and did stuff with her in town then we came home and i got ready and we went and saw shriek 2... it was cute/funny... then we went to rosas... im really starting to think that that is all there is to do in san angelo... movies and rosas/ bakerstreet depending on which theater youre at... its like all ive done all summer... or it seems like it... oh well... it was fun... my sisters boyfriend came and hung out with us at rosas for a while then we came home... and yeah... i dunno whats goin on... but i think im gunna keep that to myself...
today ive done nothing... i woke up at an amazing time of 7:00am though... because i had to take care of some stuff that didnt get done last night... but i went back to sleep at like 9 and woke up at 12... and a few other times because the phone kept ringing... i hate that! i dont even get up to answer the house line anymore because i figure if someone wants to talk to me then they can call my line... but it wakes me up and drives me crazy... i think im bein driven crazy by all these bad thoughts runnin through my head too... ive gotta figure stuff out... and work stuff out... i really want to... im gunna go
like anyone cares... sorry for the gay 'entry' --whitney...
oh yeah: my conclusion: halfway worked... im not as sad but also talkin to clay helped i think... thanks clay