it's time i realize.
there's only a few important things that've happened in the past few weeks:
- i saw clay for about 2 seconds... that could have been a lot better... mr. call's not cool.
- defensive driving is not even worth mentioning.
- homecoming really didn't affect me... but next year i hope we (the seniors) are able to do stuff. that sucks for this years seniors. i think things got way out of hand but it's not like they can't be controlled while still having a good time and carrying on 'traditions'.
- i miss karen a lot. and marching this year is terrible. i wish people would care more about what they're involved in.
it's been brought to my attention that i am very selfish and ignorant at times--a lot of the time. there are some things that i don't care enough about and somethings that i care way too much about. this year has definately been hard for me. i have been really bad at putting other people's feelings before my own and that along with other things does make me selfish. i've overlooked signs that people have been giving me. some things are just out in plain view but i ignore them. i know i've said it before and i didn't say it with the intentions of not changing, but i really want to be more... considerate of others. i'm a jerk to a a few people that i know care a lot about me. i hate that but i've made it a habit. it's not that i don't care about them i just show it differently than i should. habits aren't easily broken but i'll try.