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luckily i decided to still update even though my computer wouldn't let me last night when i tried.
so nothing has been going on other than me trying to make a decision about a... um very tough situation. i really hate changes. like even small ones i hate changing good things. and i hate when people change for the worse or when relationships change. i dunno people think i'm ridiculous but whatever. i don't know what to do. i'm so stressed out right now about so many things. actually it really isn't many things it's just things that weigh a lot in my mind and either i care a lot about or that i should care a lot about. i suppose if i just said what the stuff was, it would make more sense. but it's all too personal. pros and cons used to help me a lot but now i realize that things have different weights so you can't just count how many things are on the pros and how many are on the cons and go with whichever wins. like let's say that you can't decide... whether you should buy a really cute skirt at the mall. you have just enough money but you also owe people money that you promised to pay them. so you make a pros and cons:
PROS:
- it's really cute.
- it makes you look extremely good.
CONS:
- it costs $40. and even though you have $45 you know with tax you would only have about $1 left. and you owe several people money, you just haven't seen them in a while, but you are going to soon so if you don't have the money they might be upset, since you did promise you would have it.
so there are 2 pros and is 1 con. whatever will you do? go with with the pros that consist of how you look in the skirt... or with the con that affects other people? see other people would weigh more in my mind. so really pros and cons don't work. but maybe it does do some good to just write things down so you can think it over easier or something. i'm not sure but i need to do something. by the way, the problems that are stressing me out do not have to do with clothing. or anything materialistic... well sorta but that's if you look really deep into one thing. i want everything to be easy. it's summer and i wish i could enjoy it but i really haven't been all that much even though i would probably say i am if i were asked. i have to go to work now. this was just me rambling. oh well.