this is the time of year when you aren't supposed to think of the bad things...
it doesn't feel like Christmas time... not at all... even though i've gone to a christmas party, and a holday brunch, gone christmas shopping, walked through the lights and we're out of school and there are even a few presents under the tree already. i just don't have the holiday spirit in me this year... me and my sister didn't feel like putting up our regular ornaments... you know, the ones that you've been getting from family and friends since you were born... yeah we just didn't do it... my mom decorated the entire tree with only balls and lights... i haven't decorated my room at all and i don't really plan on it... the lights outside the house are ugly this year... i dont like them at all... they are the same as every year but they are different this year the lights on the house are fine but on the tree it's weird... all the colors besides the yellow and red are burnt out or something... so it looks stupid... i hate complaining this time of the year but it just kinda sucks...
but you know what sucks most of all: every year all of my dads side of my family goes to my grandparents house on christmas eve... this includes 4 aunts, 3 uncles, 6 cousins, 4 people in the family by marriage and this year there will be a baby... but this year my sister has to work... on christmas eve... until like 10... so she can't go... so i'm going to be like all alone... my cousins all talk about drinking and such... and college and stuff... or tractors... you see i'm an odd age for my family... there isn't a cousin close to me in age there's at least 5 years difference both ways... ah it's my family and i love them but it's going to be so weird...
even though it doesn't feel like Christmas, it does feel like winter and i hate winter... i hate being cold and i don't like long sleeve shirts or jackets i would so much rather be in shorts and a t-shirt... i like going outside in summer... but like i said i don't like being cold so i don't go outside when i can help it in the winter... you see... in the summer when you get in a car and it's hot you can roll down the windows until your a/c gets cool... but in the winter if you get in a car and its cold you would be pretty stupid to roll down the window until the heater gets warm... unless you are a smoker of course... let's look on the positive side though: in the winter you get a 2 week long break... oh goodness... summer you get ever 2 months?... hmm... well in the winter at least fires are sort of cool... and there are always lots of parties...hmm... optimism
oh and i would like to be able to sleep in my underwear with just a sheet and not be cold...
- sunday was sarah's 16th birthday... happy belated birthday sarah!
- monday was clayton's 16th birthday... happy belated birthday to him too... even though we don't talk much anymore...