Some calm thoughts.
It's been an interesting day all around.
I find myself in old playgrounds because a friend reminded me it existed.
I have spent entirely way too much time looking around today at the world and just having thoughts. Only in so much as the world beats its drum and says "Shouldn't you be doing something else right now?" You know, like being productive (monetarily) instead of just living and taking in the world one breath and one exhale at a time.
Thing is the world can say this over and over and over. It doesn't matter. What matters is when I say it to myself.
When I say that to myself I'm the vehicle that denies myself a 5 minute conversation with a chance encounter because "I've got to get back to work" or I don't take a lunch break because "I can't afford to let this problem not get solved right now".
Over the years I've formed a simple philosophy of paying attention to what I believe to understand how it affects my thoughts and actions. I've begun to form a few other important beliefs that have shaped and are shaping my future.
1.) I need to stop telling people what to do and stop engaging in conversations where there is argument on how a person should behave. They are almost always fruitless and the amount of change we have over 'all others' behavior is minuscule, possibly not even factorable ultimately. So I've been putting this to practice the last few months and it's been fantastic. Wow is life easier when you don't have to convince anyone of anything just worry about what you say and do.
2.) I do care what people believe if I have great respect or admiration of them. The inverse I feel is often true too. So when I have something to say I just say it and if those around me are in a place to hear it they will. Just like if I am I will. Why push any harder than this? It's good to understand what I care about.
3.) Apparently I like lists. Okay I lied about this one it isn't actually important. Or maybe it is. I prefer order over chaos generally and I think this is somewhat important. Order conjures a feeling of control for me. Order does not have to come from the external world it can be an internal process. When I see a mess I do not have to feel chaotic. I can orderly, peacefully, exist inside the mess of the world or aside the mess. Sometimes. This journey is new or at least my understanding of it is. A greater understanding of order I feel is to accept the natural world as it is. I see order to all things when I look close enough. The study and understanding of order is often simply called science. Others would call all of this *raises hands around and gestures to everything* chaos. I'm not sure if they're wrong but according to my first point I don't need to concern myself with that for anyone else but myself.
I find myself in old playgrounds because a friend reminded me it existed.
I have spent entirely way too much time looking around today at the world and just having thoughts. Only in so much as the world beats its drum and says "Shouldn't you be doing something else right now?" You know, like being productive (monetarily) instead of just living and taking in the world one breath and one exhale at a time.
Thing is the world can say this over and over and over. It doesn't matter. What matters is when I say it to myself.
When I say that to myself I'm the vehicle that denies myself a 5 minute conversation with a chance encounter because "I've got to get back to work" or I don't take a lunch break because "I can't afford to let this problem not get solved right now".
Over the years I've formed a simple philosophy of paying attention to what I believe to understand how it affects my thoughts and actions. I've begun to form a few other important beliefs that have shaped and are shaping my future.
1.) I need to stop telling people what to do and stop engaging in conversations where there is argument on how a person should behave. They are almost always fruitless and the amount of change we have over 'all others' behavior is minuscule, possibly not even factorable ultimately. So I've been putting this to practice the last few months and it's been fantastic. Wow is life easier when you don't have to convince anyone of anything just worry about what you say and do.
2.) I do care what people believe if I have great respect or admiration of them. The inverse I feel is often true too. So when I have something to say I just say it and if those around me are in a place to hear it they will. Just like if I am I will. Why push any harder than this? It's good to understand what I care about.
3.) Apparently I like lists. Okay I lied about this one it isn't actually important. Or maybe it is. I prefer order over chaos generally and I think this is somewhat important. Order conjures a feeling of control for me. Order does not have to come from the external world it can be an internal process. When I see a mess I do not have to feel chaotic. I can orderly, peacefully, exist inside the mess of the world or aside the mess. Sometimes. This journey is new or at least my understanding of it is. A greater understanding of order I feel is to accept the natural world as it is. I see order to all things when I look close enough. The study and understanding of order is often simply called science. Others would call all of this *raises hands around and gestures to everything* chaos. I'm not sure if they're wrong but according to my first point I don't need to concern myself with that for anyone else but myself.