Goodbye
I did this already but I think I should do it again. Only this time to everyone I meant to do before. So here...in random order as I can remember who I want down.
Heather((L)): I am so happy I became friends with you. You are one of my best friends and I can't see a happy fun life without you there to joke about everything to make my smile. You put up with me kicking and screaming because you were one of my best friends. I wish I only got to know you more before I had to leave for good. I can't wait to see you once my three year imprisonment in Atlanta passes. I still find it ironic that we fell for the same guy and that didn't cause us to want to tear each other to shreads but caused us to become best friends. At least one good LASTING relationship came from him. .:wink:. ((<~one with tears))
Heather((B)): I always wonder what would have happened if I didn't start hanging out with in second grade at Juliette Low Elementary in Ms. S. Lewis' class. We were inseparable then. But we slowly drifted apart but when you said I was your best friend tonight at s/c I was so happy even though I couldn't find it to show. This whole summer I had taken it in that me and you were friends and that was it. But to hear you call me your best friend made me want to jump and scream and laugh.
Ansley: I swear to this day that if I hadn't said "Good job" after the student council speeches that you would have beaten me up one way or another. But after that day all the tension went away...well not all of it. I had to learn how to not be the spoiled rotten brat that I was and you were one of the ones who helped me. I miss how I used to live right down the street and how I always walked down to your house. I wish I still lived in that same house on that same street so I could walk to see you instead of come 250 miles to see you.
Ashley: I used to think how me and Heather((B)) drifted apart was the worst thing but when I started hanging out with you afterwards it wasn't as bad. You were't just a replacement but you became another best friend. You were my dad's favorite too lol. I had the best time when it was me, you and Heather((L)) and Heather((B)). You were my sexy beast and you always will be lol. God those pictures you just showed me on paint. I will never forget that only you would have pictures like that lol. And the smiley face you drew on it!!!
Maria: I wish I got to see you more! But I'm glad I got to see you those two nights. I will never forget you Maria. You were always so fun to be around and how when you laughed everyone else couldn't help but laugh. I'm glad I got to meet you through Ashley and The Heathers. I really wish I was able to see you more while I was down. But I'm glad I got to see you a little then none at all.
Josh: Yeah you got a place here too. A lot of times I wonder if that month was a smart choice but I'm glad I had a chance to be with you. I hated how for those two years we hardly ever spoke. But now you're someone I can turn to when something is wrong. I'm extremely happy we were able to work through all the problems we had even though they did seem childish. But I'm glad we can laugh about them now.
Marty: Without you I honestly don't know how I would end up. A lot of people would get tired of hearing me complain about how my life was so screwed when it was perfect compared to a lot of other people's lives. But you still listened and still talked to me to make sure by the end of the day I smiled at least once. Even when I had trouble with a guy you still listened. And though you want to be modest and not want to admitt it but you did do something worth being thanked. In my eyes you did. Just being there and hearing me out and listening to me...that was enough to be thanked for. You never once told me to shut up or to get over it or say as a lot of annoying optimist say ((not singling out anyone)) "Things could be worse...Be thankful that...". I'm going to miss you terrible and thanks for helping me tonight.
Scott: I've met you only this summer and I'm really glad that I did. You too didn't push me away or tell me to get over it but you talked to me also. I was hugging you goodbye tonight and I didn't know how to say goodbye to you. So I stood there hugging you not sure if I could say goodbye or let go. But you reminded me that I had a way of calling out to you if I ever needed you and I think that helped some. You're another I don't know where I would be without even though I have only known you for a very short time and haven't even talked to you much. But you have helped me just by stopping to take the time and talk to me.
Now I don't have anything left to say. There are so much others but I can't think of what to say. Not because they are more important than the ones listed but because I just can't find anything to say. From the very beginning of this entry I struggled trying to find the perfect words to say. I tried so hard to not make this seem like a last will and testament or sucidal goodbye note. But I don't think you can ever really say goodbye without it sounding that way.
I did this hoping that I would be able to let go a little so I could go back to Atlanta and try to be happy. But it didn't work. I'm fighting back tears once more as I finish saying goodbye to all of you I have named and silently say goodbye to those who aren't. It's harder now though...because now you aren't there to catch me as I fall. So I'm left to hit that ground but knowing that I can at least think of all of you and at least talk to all of you...that at least cushions the fall.
By the way...Happy Birthday Daddy...even though it was yesterday. I know you can't read this but maybe somehow you will.
Heather((L)): I am so happy I became friends with you. You are one of my best friends and I can't see a happy fun life without you there to joke about everything to make my smile. You put up with me kicking and screaming because you were one of my best friends. I wish I only got to know you more before I had to leave for good. I can't wait to see you once my three year imprisonment in Atlanta passes. I still find it ironic that we fell for the same guy and that didn't cause us to want to tear each other to shreads but caused us to become best friends. At least one good LASTING relationship came from him. .:wink:. ((<~one with tears))
Heather((B)): I always wonder what would have happened if I didn't start hanging out with in second grade at Juliette Low Elementary in Ms. S. Lewis' class. We were inseparable then. But we slowly drifted apart but when you said I was your best friend tonight at s/c I was so happy even though I couldn't find it to show. This whole summer I had taken it in that me and you were friends and that was it. But to hear you call me your best friend made me want to jump and scream and laugh.
Ansley: I swear to this day that if I hadn't said "Good job" after the student council speeches that you would have beaten me up one way or another. But after that day all the tension went away...well not all of it. I had to learn how to not be the spoiled rotten brat that I was and you were one of the ones who helped me. I miss how I used to live right down the street and how I always walked down to your house. I wish I still lived in that same house on that same street so I could walk to see you instead of come 250 miles to see you.
Ashley: I used to think how me and Heather((B)) drifted apart was the worst thing but when I started hanging out with you afterwards it wasn't as bad. You were't just a replacement but you became another best friend. You were my dad's favorite too lol. I had the best time when it was me, you and Heather((L)) and Heather((B)). You were my sexy beast and you always will be lol. God those pictures you just showed me on paint. I will never forget that only you would have pictures like that lol. And the smiley face you drew on it!!!
Maria: I wish I got to see you more! But I'm glad I got to see you those two nights. I will never forget you Maria. You were always so fun to be around and how when you laughed everyone else couldn't help but laugh. I'm glad I got to meet you through Ashley and The Heathers. I really wish I was able to see you more while I was down. But I'm glad I got to see you a little then none at all.
Josh: Yeah you got a place here too. A lot of times I wonder if that month was a smart choice but I'm glad I had a chance to be with you. I hated how for those two years we hardly ever spoke. But now you're someone I can turn to when something is wrong. I'm extremely happy we were able to work through all the problems we had even though they did seem childish. But I'm glad we can laugh about them now.
Marty: Without you I honestly don't know how I would end up. A lot of people would get tired of hearing me complain about how my life was so screwed when it was perfect compared to a lot of other people's lives. But you still listened and still talked to me to make sure by the end of the day I smiled at least once. Even when I had trouble with a guy you still listened. And though you want to be modest and not want to admitt it but you did do something worth being thanked. In my eyes you did. Just being there and hearing me out and listening to me...that was enough to be thanked for. You never once told me to shut up or to get over it or say as a lot of annoying optimist say ((not singling out anyone)) "Things could be worse...Be thankful that...". I'm going to miss you terrible and thanks for helping me tonight.
Scott: I've met you only this summer and I'm really glad that I did. You too didn't push me away or tell me to get over it but you talked to me also. I was hugging you goodbye tonight and I didn't know how to say goodbye to you. So I stood there hugging you not sure if I could say goodbye or let go. But you reminded me that I had a way of calling out to you if I ever needed you and I think that helped some. You're another I don't know where I would be without even though I have only known you for a very short time and haven't even talked to you much. But you have helped me just by stopping to take the time and talk to me.
Now I don't have anything left to say. There are so much others but I can't think of what to say. Not because they are more important than the ones listed but because I just can't find anything to say. From the very beginning of this entry I struggled trying to find the perfect words to say. I tried so hard to not make this seem like a last will and testament or sucidal goodbye note. But I don't think you can ever really say goodbye without it sounding that way.
I did this hoping that I would be able to let go a little so I could go back to Atlanta and try to be happy. But it didn't work. I'm fighting back tears once more as I finish saying goodbye to all of you I have named and silently say goodbye to those who aren't. It's harder now though...because now you aren't there to catch me as I fall. So I'm left to hit that ground but knowing that I can at least think of all of you and at least talk to all of you...that at least cushions the fall.
By the way...Happy Birthday Daddy...even though it was yesterday. I know you can't read this but maybe somehow you will.