Not Fair
I shouldn't have to choose. I shouldn't. I should be able to have both Marty and Scott at my party. I know they both hae each other but I consider both of them good friends. And I want them both there. Marty says if Scott goes then he isn't going to go.
I hate being caught in the middle of things.
I've been trying to talk to Wade about "ya know." But everytime I call it's like he's busy and he never wants to talk. I told Jordan about it and he asked Wade. And when I was talking to Jordan on the phone Wade asked Jordan who is it and Jordan told him it was me. And I could hear Wade making this groaning noise like he didn't want Jordan talking to me. That really hurt. I always thought Wade was someone I could talk to. But then Jordan says it's like Wade doesn't even care about me anymore. It really hurts.
My party is supposed to be on the 16th or the 17th. Most likely the 17th because everone will probably be at s/c on the 16th since it is a Friday. I'm supposed to have it at Aunt Debbie's house. Most likely one person will end up giving like 5 or 6 people rides and like 30 show up. And then about 10 or 15 of em will stay the night over there. That's how it was last year. But not as many people stayed the night.
Great now I think I am going to loose Marty's friendship completely. I don't know what I would do if I lost him as a friend. He has helped me so much when I felt like shit and like I was the lowest thing on the earth. ((Which sometimes I still feel that way...))
It's almost like I am loosing the best in everyone. I've lost pretty much all my friendship with Heather. I barely talk to Ansley anymore. Wade doesn't want anything to do with me. And Marty could find a much better friend than me.
Maybe in the end we are all meant to be alone...
I hate being caught in the middle of things.
I've been trying to talk to Wade about "ya know." But everytime I call it's like he's busy and he never wants to talk. I told Jordan about it and he asked Wade. And when I was talking to Jordan on the phone Wade asked Jordan who is it and Jordan told him it was me. And I could hear Wade making this groaning noise like he didn't want Jordan talking to me. That really hurt. I always thought Wade was someone I could talk to. But then Jordan says it's like Wade doesn't even care about me anymore. It really hurts.
My party is supposed to be on the 16th or the 17th. Most likely the 17th because everone will probably be at s/c on the 16th since it is a Friday. I'm supposed to have it at Aunt Debbie's house. Most likely one person will end up giving like 5 or 6 people rides and like 30 show up. And then about 10 or 15 of em will stay the night over there. That's how it was last year. But not as many people stayed the night.
Great now I think I am going to loose Marty's friendship completely. I don't know what I would do if I lost him as a friend. He has helped me so much when I felt like shit and like I was the lowest thing on the earth. ((Which sometimes I still feel that way...))
It's almost like I am loosing the best in everyone. I've lost pretty much all my friendship with Heather. I barely talk to Ansley anymore. Wade doesn't want anything to do with me. And Marty could find a much better friend than me.
Maybe in the end we are all meant to be alone...