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I told myself I was over you. I told myself I hated you.
It was the truth.
So why does it still make me sad? Why can't I help but look at you? I've never understood anything that went on between us. Even when it was happening. All I knew was that you made me happy. And that is all that seemed to matter. but now, this. How it can go from one extream to another, I dont know, but it sure as hell did. I miss you, I always will. Maybe someday I can forget about the bad a remember you fondly. I dont want it to be over, but it was over long ago. I can't say I loved you, but you will always have a portion of my heart. I wish we could be friends, but I highly doubt I can handle that now. You are a wonderful person, no matter how you act or how other people see you. I may never see that wondeful person again, but I know that it is there. I hope I meant something to you also, but I'm just writing this to help myself close this, or to give me the strength to move on.... I wish things could've been different, but it's too late. I waited too long. I'm letting go... and it's one of the hardest things I've ever had to do.
Brooks And Dunn "It's getting better all the time"
I don't stop breathing everytime the phone rings,
My heart don't heart don't race when someone's at my door,
I've almost given up thinking you're ever gonna call,
I don't believe in magic anymore,
I just don't lie awake at night,
Asking God to get you off my mind.
It's getting better all the time,
it's getting better all the time.
Yeah I got to work on time again this morning,
This old job is all that I got left,
And no one even noticed I'd been crying,
At least I don't have whiskey on my breath,
Yeah I think I'm gonna make it,
'Cause god won't make a mountain I can't climb.
It's gettine better all the time,
It's getting better all the time.
God I hope you're happy,
Girl I wish you well,
I just might get over you
But you can't ever tell
I always thought I'd do something crazy,
If I ever saw you out with someone else,
But when the moment came last night,
I couldn't say a word,
I stood there in the dark all by myself,
Yeah I could have said a million things,
But all I did was keep it locked inside.
It's getting better all the time,
It's getting better all the time,
It's getting better all...the time.