bleh
I really should be writing a mass email to all my friends but theres really nothing notable to write. Last week was a blur of schoolwork mostly, going to the gym and just hanging out. The weekend was non-exciting besides for a massive drunken night on Saturday and subsequent sleeping in until 2:30 and then sitting on the couch reading all day Sunday. At least I finished a whole 500+ page book, which is good. I haven't read in a while and I miss it.
I'm totally in a bleh/crappy mood and I'm not really sure why. Maybe because it's rainy/grey outside but I'm not really sure. I miss my mom and I miss my friends and even though it's not that big a deal because there's no way in 50bajillion years I'd ever want to leave/regret comming here, I still miss familiar friendly faces.
I have a lot of friends here, but it takes a lot for me to get really close with people, and to trust them as my friends past superficial levels. Maybe it's a self-esteem thing, maybe it's just my past experiences with friends. But yeah....
I could talk more about Dave, but he's sitting here beside me so I guess I better not. Well. I dunno. Things with him are good I guess. Actually they're really good. He stayed over Friday night, and I just stayed there last night. Fooled around yes, but not a ton. Haven't gone all the way. Which is nice. He's just a really really nice guy, he'd totally treat anyone well. It's actually a pretty nice change -change from what exactly I don't know as old boyfriends weren't exactly jerk-faces to me. I dunno, it's hard to explain without describing specific situations which I'd rather not do.
But yeah.... went over there last night. He still has pics of his ex'gf up on his wall. ok whatever yes I still have pics of mark and other people up. Maybe I'm just being a jealous bitch -which is not normal of me, but I haven't been normal in a while. Anyway, she's gorgeous. And skinny and hot and everthing I'm not. hahah whatever. I'm being stupid.
But it still bugs me. Gah I have no right to be bothered by it. Whatever.
I'm stopping this typing now.
I'm an idiot.
I'm totally in a bleh/crappy mood and I'm not really sure why. Maybe because it's rainy/grey outside but I'm not really sure. I miss my mom and I miss my friends and even though it's not that big a deal because there's no way in 50bajillion years I'd ever want to leave/regret comming here, I still miss familiar friendly faces.
I have a lot of friends here, but it takes a lot for me to get really close with people, and to trust them as my friends past superficial levels. Maybe it's a self-esteem thing, maybe it's just my past experiences with friends. But yeah....
I could talk more about Dave, but he's sitting here beside me so I guess I better not. Well. I dunno. Things with him are good I guess. Actually they're really good. He stayed over Friday night, and I just stayed there last night. Fooled around yes, but not a ton. Haven't gone all the way. Which is nice. He's just a really really nice guy, he'd totally treat anyone well. It's actually a pretty nice change -change from what exactly I don't know as old boyfriends weren't exactly jerk-faces to me. I dunno, it's hard to explain without describing specific situations which I'd rather not do.
But yeah.... went over there last night. He still has pics of his ex'gf up on his wall. ok whatever yes I still have pics of mark and other people up. Maybe I'm just being a jealous bitch -which is not normal of me, but I haven't been normal in a while. Anyway, she's gorgeous. And skinny and hot and everthing I'm not. hahah whatever. I'm being stupid.
But it still bugs me. Gah I have no right to be bothered by it. Whatever.
I'm stopping this typing now.
I'm an idiot.