Hopelessly Devoted
So, if you followed the last entry then you know Master and i had a fight. But i am here to tell you that the fight is over! OVER, lol! Yup. I was sitting at my desk firmly resolved to apologize to Master on my knees when He got home and then have a discuss on bdsm and dominance when Master came home. He silently crept up on and by the time I turned around he was had shoved some roses in my face and formally presented me with an apology and a big tub of butter pecan ice cream, lol. I giggled like a mad woman and smiled before taking the gifts putting them aside and hugging Him. Then I sincerely apologized. He seemed really surprised. Normally I hate apologizing. I told Him that I conceded on all the points he made that day and told Him I wanted to talk.
I asked Him if he had been trying to assert dominance by being a little harsher than normal. His reply was that He actually wasn't. He was just trying to end an argument before it began. I explained my feelings and He conceded that He had been harsher than normal but only because He had just wanted me quiet before my selfishness ruined the day. He wanted me to 'shut up, calm down, and let Him drive'. Then the cogs started turning in His head as i pointed how utterly controlling and dominant that sounded. And HE realized that maybe He had been asserting dominance. Until this point i don't think He ever realized what i meant or believed me when i would say that He was already dominant, just repressed. I think He came away with a lot to think about.
After His light bulb turned on He decided to address me. And His judgement was sound. What did it matter if He was asserting His dominance or not? If i was going to make the choice to submit then that submission needed to be 24/7 and i needed to be completely devoted to it . If He's a little sharp or gives me THAT look then i don't need to be wasting time wondering if He is being dominant. i just need to do whatever He is currently asking me to do. Simple, yes?
I think we both walked away with a lot to think about.
:)
I asked Him if he had been trying to assert dominance by being a little harsher than normal. His reply was that He actually wasn't. He was just trying to end an argument before it began. I explained my feelings and He conceded that He had been harsher than normal but only because He had just wanted me quiet before my selfishness ruined the day. He wanted me to 'shut up, calm down, and let Him drive'. Then the cogs started turning in His head as i pointed how utterly controlling and dominant that sounded. And HE realized that maybe He had been asserting dominance. Until this point i don't think He ever realized what i meant or believed me when i would say that He was already dominant, just repressed. I think He came away with a lot to think about.
After His light bulb turned on He decided to address me. And His judgement was sound. What did it matter if He was asserting His dominance or not? If i was going to make the choice to submit then that submission needed to be 24/7 and i needed to be completely devoted to it . If He's a little sharp or gives me THAT look then i don't need to be wasting time wondering if He is being dominant. i just need to do whatever He is currently asking me to do. Simple, yes?
I think we both walked away with a lot to think about.
:)